Mom who lost 2 children in 6 1/2 months
Exactly one month to the day....of burying my Moma and giving her Eulogy, I found myself giving the eulogy for my son. He was a wonderful young man. 36 years old. He was my soulmate . Two people, but the same in every way possible. When I was with him, I felt totally recharged, alive, content, filled with joy....and he felt the same. We aren't sure what happened to this sweet soul. His 5 siblings and I...About a year and a half before his death, he started acting irrational . He severed all relationships with us. Our hearts were broken. He became confused, dillusional even. We continued to try to reach him. This sweet kind soul, who had been in the military, a well decorated police officer, cell phone forensics expert.....was confused. In the end, this gentle man took his life in a state of confusion and terror. His firstborn was born 5 months later.
6 1/2 months after the most horrific day a mother could ever endure, it happened again. This time to my beautiful Kerry. My daughter who was born with Rett Syndrome. She lived with me until the age of 25. With the severity of her disease, I had nurses during the day. She smiled at me everyday. She could never walk or talk.....but spoke volumes with those beautiful eyes. She knew my every secret. She did not judge. She loved babies. She was my hero.
I try as I may to keep on. I also endured a needed divorce during this time. My sister decided to not speak to me again.....and has not. But....my faith is strong. I am hoping to find a way to get through....