Mommy I love you!!

by Linda
(Modesto, Ca)

Feb. 06, 2010 was the day she passed away. My mom had a stroke on July 15, 2009 and got sent to San Francisco for a month. Then they transfer her to another city called Visila, from there she was in a sub acute care for five months.

The cause of her stroke was that she had high blood pressure and there was too much blood in her brain. The doctor there said that she had to get an incision in her neck, because she couldn’t breathe on her own, so she had a tube going through her neck for her oxygen which was called a trache,
To help her breathe.

Every two weeks I would go see her because of the distance and work it was hard to be by her side. But every time I’m there I always tell her I love her and to be strong and one day she will come back home. I’m her oldest daughter, she has three kids in all including me.

It was going well until that morning at 1:34 on Feb. 06, 2010, the nurse had called and I had a feeling it wasn’t good because no one calls in the morning. The nurse told me that my mom pulled her oxygen out from her neck and she couldn’t breathe. The last time they checked up on her was at 12 in the morning, then at 12:30 they came in her room. she turned blue and they did CPR, but she didn’t come back. The reason of her death was because she had no oxygen. When the nurse told me what happened, I just started crying and yelling then I left to my dads house, it was an hour away.

I didn’t know how to tell my daughter that her grandma is gone, my daughter is only two and she loves her grandma so much. The last time I visit my mom
Was Jan 28, 2010, and I told her I’ll come back in a week and that I love her. That Saturday on Feb. 06, 2010 was the day she passed away and that same day, I’m suppose to go see her, and now she is gone, it hurts so much. I just want to know why she did it or is it an accident maybe she was sleeping and accidentally pulled it out. I don’t know but she will always be in my heart until the day I die.

I love you mommy.

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Jan 19, 2012
I miss you so much..
by: Linda your daughter

It's going to be two year that your gone. That would be in two weeks from now. I miss u and think about you all the time. I wish you were here to see your grandson hes going to be nine months next month. He will never get to see you cause your gone. It hurts so much still I just want to tell you I love you and I still think about you.

Apr 21, 2010
Mommy I miss you
by: linda

It's been two month since you're gone but it feels like it was yesterday. It still hurts so much I miss you so much. I love you always and forever!!

Feb 27, 2010
I love my mom too.
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry for your loss. My mom died the same day, 2/6/2010. It's very difficult!! Allow yourself time to grieve. You will be ok, even though you may not feel as though you will.

Feb 26, 2010
Re: Mommy I love you
by: Anonymous

I am very sorry to hear of the loss of your mom. You can be sure she is safe with the Lord and out of pain. Obviously she was very sick and suffering.

It is hard to say why she pulled the tube out but it could have been an accident or she wasn't thinking clearly due to the suffering. Hard to say.

It may be a good idea to tell your 2 yr old that grandma is in heaven now.

A mother is a precious person and I know you are going through so much now. Just stay close to the Lord and he will help you with the healing process, which will take time.

You are never alone. You have God to comfort you. Be thankful for the years you had her. I get the feeling she was a wonderful mother with a loving daughter like you. God bless you and keep you.

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