by Olivia

My beautiful friend Mo!

My beautiful friend Mo!

14 years old, too young to die, you were my everything and i held you close, taken from this world via suicide on Feb 16th 2009.

That day will be imprinted on my heart, i wanted to help, i talked to you and told you everything, you trusted me and i promised, our promises to live untill we were 101 and old and wrinkly, our promise NEVER TO DIE TO SUICIDE.

I'm told that you are in hell by the 'christian' people around me but if that's what they believe, that you, my wonderful amazing friend MONIKA is in hell? NO WAY will i ever believe that!

I go day to day with a feeling of guilt and at loss to what now, my life is not complete without you, HOW CAN IT BE? I wish i did something.. something more then the EVERYTHING i tried.. i love the person you are and i know i will see you again..our un followed promises that were never followed through will be with me forever. I just hope i can keep my end of our pinky promises and plans that we had are my everything and i never once judged you, never have, never are and always will be one of my best friends..death can't take that apart.

Your death is making others do their job... to stop others from commiting suicide..if only they did their job from the start then maybe you wouldn't be gone.


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May 13, 2017
In my thoughts
by: Anonymous

8 years on, still you are in my thoughts and in my heart. I seek to be a better person in memory of the gift you were to those around you. Rest well Monika, see you soon.

Oct 23, 2016
by: Anonymous

Monika, it's been a while
You have visited me a handful of times since in my dreams and I feel hapiness whenever you come. Now that I'm an adult I think back through everything with a more rational mind than my 14 year old self, and I feel true grief in my heart for you and everything you went through so quietly to everyone around you. Know that I will never forget you and that you are safe now, until we met again Monika and make our stupid faces and draw some pigs together up in heaven
I love you dearly

Jun 11, 2016
by: G

In our hearts, always. Will visit soon Monika promise!

Apr 08, 2014
Monika forever in our hearts
by: In memory

Please know Monika, that we will never forget the gift of your life. Missing you everyday.

On another note, i never picked up the courage to visit her final resting place.. Does anyone have any idea where i might find it? I want so much to make peace with the past

Apr 16, 2012
has the video been made?
by: Anonymous

I MISS MO SO MUCH, i love that i wrote this so that others can hear pieces of her story <3

Apr 08, 2012
The Reason
by: K.

It's been a few years now.. and finally i get a chance to voice it out. A few weeks before the day that took her away, we met up. this happened Not long after she had broke up with her other boyfriend, and an overdose that had me real scared. We knew each other since year 7, and in those years we became so close we could tell each other anything!. I was one of the people in her life she could turn to when times were at its roughest, and i was always there. But then we did something stupid. No, I did something stupid. and after that we both felt so guilty that we decided to break it off between us. A few weeks later, i hear the news and break down.... Monika, the coolest girl i have ever known, taken in an instant. And me, stupid stupid me making such a big mistake like that. at a time when she needed me most.. i wasnt there. Not a day goes by where i wish i hadnt of lost contact with her... Im so sorry Monika. I've failed you! i miss your kiss, your smile! i hope you can forgive me for the wrong ive done. It's all my fault, and so i promise i will live life now for the both of us. i feel as though i owe your family an explanation for all this, and i promise one day to find them and tell them everything. Forgive me Monika, Much Love.

Mar 11, 2012
by: Brittany Baker

I was a very close friend to Monika during her primary school years. With a group of willing and dedicated students, we have decided to create a documentary on Monika's life. It is not to glorify the death but to celebrate the memory of Monika, to show the effect it has had on the community and what we can do to prevent youth suicide in our society. I understand you were very close to Monika and I would really appreciate if we could interview you or anyone who would be willing who knew Monika. We hsve already got her mother and some friends who will contribute and we would really appreciate if you would to. It will be focused on her life rather than the tragic event. If you would like to help us you can contact me on: Thank you.

Sep 30, 2011
I still miss u
by: Lizzie

Its been over 2 years and not one day that a train goes past I dont think of u :'(

Aug 15, 2011
by: Anonymous

i miss you :(

Oct 16, 2010
by: Anonymous

I still think about you most days. I cant get it out of my head. You were too young and I wish I could have been there after primary to help you. I feel so bad and guilty that I didn't stay friends with you from year 7 onwards. We went to different school and our friendship disappeared. I'm so sorry Monika. You were the greatest friend I could've asked for. Thank you Monika. I love you. <3

Aug 15, 2010
my little friend
by: Fran

I member the first time we meet, you were the sweetest thing. We used to talk everyday for about a year in homeroom time. I member you telling me about your friend olivia and about the promise you two made, I member you telling me about all the key chains you had on your bag because I would always play with them :) I miss you so much and I think about you almost everyday I wish you had come to me. You were an amazing girl and I will never forget you. Gone but NEVER forgotten my lovely.
Love and miss you :( :( xxxxxxx

May 11, 2010
Wish you were here
by: Anonymous

I miss you so much. I think about you all the time... you were such a gorgeous, fantastic, smart, funny girl and every time i think of your death i ask myself, why did it have to be you? why did you have to go this way? There is so much that you're missing out on, so many experiences that we could be going through together if you were still with us.

Being your friend was amazing. Your pigeon imitation was HILARIOUS. I remember me and you making a spit pact when we were 12 after life education that we would look after each others at parties and stand up to anyone who tried to 'peer pressure' into anything, but we didn't even get to play out that promise, coz we never got ourselves into that situation... it sucked a lot when we started to drift apart, but i always looked forward to your emails and updates.

I miss you so much xxx

Mar 16, 2010
by: Anonymous

I think you have an awesome space here. I think it is blessed by God. You are sharing love and forgiveness and that is what GOD expects of us. We do not always understand why things happen as they do. But one thing I DO KNOW FOR SURE, if we ask GOD how can we use this for your glory and ask him what he is trying to teach us about all happens, GOD will reveal the answer. Believe me I have experienced this over and over. Believe and trust in God. Do not lean on your own understanding but trust and believe in our Heavenly Father. May Our Sweet precious Lord reveal himself to you. Love Brenda Tittle

Jan 22, 2010
by: Catinca

Monika, we grew up together and spent endless days of summer just lounging around. You will be always remembered and I will always cherish the memories I have of you. Of the bright, bubbly girl you were. I wish I was there after Meadowbank, but sadly it was not to be. Hope you are in a happy place now, where everything seems better.


Dec 23, 2009
by: Ms Horse

Monika is in a safe place, we here are in hell, we go through the evilness of life and are challenged every minute of every day. Do not listen to the people who say she is in hell, how on earth would they know ?!!

Keep Monika alive in your heart. You had a very special gift of spending time with Monika. Remember people come into our lives for a reason, whether it be a long time or short, and leave footprints behind.

I lost my 6 year old niece 13 years ago and I still find it hard at times, but then I remember the fun times and that is what makes me go on. Remember her smile, her laughter, her heart and keep these in yours. xo

Oct 12, 2009
response to Monika
by: Gracie

Dear Monika,

It is both wonderful and deeply sad that you had a true friend and the two of you formed a tight bond, one you thought would last at least a lifetime. I am so sorry that your friend cut her life short. Suicide is deeply sad and gut wrenching. I am a mom who lost her son to suicide 4 years ago. I will share a poem under "adult children" titled, "He's Mine" that you might find comforting. It is a true story and in fact, God placed this young man's mother in my path and we chat by phone, having never met. But I took courage from her story those first few months.

It is cruel, false and judgmental to tell someone's family and friends that the person who completes suicide will burn in hell. This is an oft held thought, but it is not biblical. Samson took his life and Hebrews 2 says that he will be in heaven. there are many texts of scripture that help us understand that our God is Love and He wants His kids with Him, not keep them out. Only He knows the circumstances of their lives and only He has all the information about each one of us, which He knew 6000 years ago. That is a long time to plan and wait for each one of us to get here. Why would He grab at any opportunity to snuff our lives out? I have written lots about this. If you read "He's Mine" and want more, contact me at and I will send you more.
God bless you,

Sep 24, 2009
by: Tanya

I too lost my father to suicide April 5 '08. I heard all the people debating where my father was going, Hell? I don't believe that at all. My father was clinicaly depressed over losing my mother and watching her die in his arms 3 yrs prior.

Let me share my feelings on suicide. If the christains believe that they go to hell, why does the world say depression is a disease? I mean honestly, if a person is dying from cancer, they go to Heaven, because they are sick. Why wouldn't God wrap his heart and arms around someone who is sick in their mind and heart?

People don't understand until heaven forbid, they are in this situation. Prayers lift that person up to heaven anyways. Suicide is tough and I don't believe for one minute that they go to Hell. God is patient and kind, and forgiving!

Sep 22, 2009
by: Anonymous

An old childhood friend, gone forever. Memories live on. Lots of them to remember from primary. Will always remember Monica M.


Sep 21, 2009
by: Matty

Monika is in Heaven. God is a very loving and compassionate God. She is in his care. I do know this. My son Justin took his life June 28, 2009. I will share his story soon.

Sep 04, 2009
by: Anonymous

Let the Christians believe and say what they want. Monika is not in hell she is in a safe and warm place, your heart!!!

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