More Lost Now than Year I Lost Four People
Between Nov 2010 and Dec 2011 I lost my mother, my sister, my father, and my best friend. My mother was 66 and passed away from lung cancer, my sister (45) passed three months later from alcoholism, my dad passed the following October from a broken heart(?)( we took him to the hospital one day because he didn't seem right and a week later he died in intensive care), a few months later my best friend (41), that I had known since birth took his own life. I think for a year or two I was numb, plus there were other friends and family members around to offer comfort. Now they are moving on with their lives and I am putting on a show of doing the same thing, but I often feel more lost than ever. Death is a fairly constant subject in my mind which can be a real drain on my well being. I never thought about it much before the deaths. I have one sister left that I am not at all close with. I do have a wonderful wife and two daughters that I love spending time with and have gotten me through a lot. I just wonder when or if I will get past my current feelings or if I will eventually learn to live with them.