Most Beloved: Tank
by Rhonda D
I miss you so much that my heart feels broken.
I feel so guilty and wish I could take it back.
You almost made it to 14 years old but that horrible tumor came back after just 6 months, making it impossible for you to even take a poop in peace.
Your back legs would give out and I had to wipe your bottom after you went to bathroom but I didn't care.
It seemed so perfectly reasonable and the right and honorable thing to do for you, but I haven't stopped crying since.
I miss seeing you as soon as I come home, laying in your special spot. Dragging yourself up to come greet me. Waiting patiently for me to come to you if the other dogs were in your way.
You were always the best, most loyal boy and I love you the best out of our dogs.
I miss you following me EVERYWHERE I went. Even to a different room.
I miss you jumping up and acting like a tough old man when the other dogs were play fighting. I miss you chasing big ole pit bull Joker and him running away from you.
I miss giving you your special treats every day.
This is the worst thing I have gone thru and I have been thru human deaths.
I would give anything to have you here beside me.
I love you so so so much my sweet boy and I can't wait until we are together again.
"You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us."
Sometimes he sits at your feet looking into your face with an expression so gentle and caressing that the depth of his gaze startles you. Who can believe that there is no soul behind those luminous eyes!"