Mother, I miss you
One week and and two hours ago, my mother died from multiple myeloma cancer. I miss her so much. I miss her smile, our talks, everything about her. I'm getting married in 9 days, and I wanted her there. I was hoping she would walk me down the aisle.
I look to the sky every night and tell her I love her and miss her. I feel like part of my soul is missing. We were so close. We could finish each other's sentences or sometimes, I'd call her, and she would say she was just getting ready to call me.
My heart and soul aches. I sang to her when she was at Hospice. I told her I would see her again someday. I am a Christian and I believe in life after death, but I wonder now where she is. Is she in heaven?? Is her soul floating around? Is she in another altered state in the ground until Jesus returns?
Why her? Why did she have to die? Why did she have to hurt with cancer? Why can't we find a cure for cancer? I'm lost without her.