by Elizabeth

my kevin was 40 and passed away april 3 2011 we still don't know why kevin only weight 2 1/2 lbs. at birth but over came it and grew into a wonderful man. I was barely 16 at his birth so we kind of grew up together we were very close he always lived beside me the day he passed his wife came and told us to come something was wrong with him I went running to him and held him in my arms until the ambulance came but they couldn't not revive him. I lost my dad,nephew,mother and brother but I have never felt the hurt i am enduring now He married and adopted 2 wonderful boys.his wife had him cremated and I just couldn't hardly stand it.they took him for an autopsy so they cut him up and then burned him up and just sprinkled him around on the ground.he was my only child and I just don't know how I can live with out him. I never imagined such pain and despair.

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Jun 09, 2011
loss of a child
by: Anonymous

Hugs to you....the loss of a child is the most catastrophic loss in the world. I too lost my son ten months ago today to leukemia. He was 23 years old. He had just begun to live his life and I was just learning to let go enough to let him. I am still suffering daily. When I raised him my expectation was that I was going to let go so he could go on and be a man and live a good life. I never expected that "letting go" meant letting him go into the arms of God. It's a pretty awful existence and I'm not sure if it will ever get better.

Jun 08, 2011
by: sweet john's mom

I just read your blog and I am so sad for you. I started posting on here last week because my son also 40, john passed away on April 30, 2011. It is really hard to focus and do day to day things. I have also lost my mother, father , sister, newphew, but this is
really killing me. You think about when you were pregnant with him, when he was a little boy.
40 should be half your life, not suddenly over.I wish you peace and some relief from this hell on earth. My son did say he was good with god, and came home to die 18 days, and I held his hand as he passed. How sad to see his first and last breath.

Jun 08, 2011
another greif companion
by: joanette

Let me express my deepest sympathy on your recent lose. I feel your pain and i will pray for you. I just lost my second one on may 9th this year. he was 27 a twin and a new dad with a 18m old baby boy. It was nov 22nd of 09 when i lost the other one. he was 32. I feel your pain and know how devastated you are' May god bless you

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