Mother's Day = :(
I lost my Mam, my hero, almost 11 months ago to a cruel disease. She was too young to go but too weak to stay. She fought until the end with such determination and strength, she was one in a million.
For all I thought I was coping well with her passing over the months supporting my family through such a hard time, I haven't been entirely honest with myself. I haven't been coping, far from it, but have hid my pain well. To appreciate the highs in life you have to respect the lows and this is the biggest one of them all. To be a naturally happy, optimistic person these feelings of being so down are very hard yet humbling.
This Sunday is going to be difficult, not only is it Mother's day but also for my grandparents who have lost their daughter. To be honest I am dreading this weekend and I'm already sick of the adverts, cards in shops and everything associated with Mother's day.
On Sunday I am planning on on visiting my grandparents and then visit my Mam's grave. It's hard to think that this time last year we were all round a table celebrating Mother's day as a family and how we have this huge hole in our lives.
I know I will get through the day like I have got through the past year but my heart feels so heavy as I miss her so much. The next few weeks will be hard to as her anniversary is fast approaching.
So here is to you Mam, Happy Mother's Day love and miss you always.