I love him so much, I miss him. I am lost and in pain. My love lost his fight with cancer 3 weeks ago on the 9/3.he was my light my love my soulmate. I left a friends and family and moved country to be with him cause he was the one. Now I am alone in a home we did together. It is strange to be here when he is not. And I can't let go cause I'm afraid to lose the last connection. I have family staying over for a short while but they'll be gone and I will be alone. I have no work to go to. I am afraid to go insane, depressed and do something foolish. I miss him so much and I am hurting like mad. It seems I am standing still and the world is moving. I love you my love and always will.