I lost a dear girlfriend and was coping with the grief somewhat. The following year my husband up and left us unexpectedly and abruptly. I thought he must have been going through a midlife crisis. It was a shock and I was devistated. The vast consequences were huge and many. Not long after my best friend died of kidney failure, I was numb. A few months later, my father was ill for 3 months and passed away, my mother followed him 4 weeks later. I fell apart. My three grown up children suffer from anxiety, panic attacks and depression, broken relationships and grief. I live alone, I keep to myself. I go to work and smile, and look after others, as I am a nurse. Some days I have had enough. Recently I found out that my then husband was cheating on me when he left us. Another hard knock for us. Some days it is all too much. My wonderful kids come to me with their problems, and sometimes I feel like I am going to fall apart. Too much grief. Too much loss. I feel for all who suffer this. Just take one day at a time. I do.