my 21 year old son shot himself

by cristiana crews
(west jordan)

Michael was 8 when he was molested for 7 years by an uncle. This man was 17 when he started to molest my son. He taught my beautiful son a life of crime where they both committed horrible acts against other people. Jan 21st of 2012 he shot himself in the head while at his girlfriends house, leaving his younger brother and me behind, and his body for his poor girlfriend to find after she woke up to the gunshot. I am not sure how to help my other son who is obviously having a horrible time dealing with the loss of his older brother.

Comments for my 21 year old son shot himself

Click here to add your own comments

Jun 04, 2012
Christina God is merciful and still in control
by: Carla

I am so sorry to hear about your son. It will take alot of time and emotional roller coaster to ever find peace for yourself.

My daughter was 29 and was brutally murdered two years this July. One day last week I had to leave work because I could not concentrate, sit still, and stop crying. I know she is at peace but that does not stop me from grieving her loss with every thing I have.

I think your son was depressed and I don't think our God would judge him for not being in his right mind. You could not change him. Please keep that in mind. Grief is hard enough as it is without feeling guilty.

God Bless and Keep you in his loving arms.

May 30, 2012
heavy hearts
by: Anonymous

My son was your son's age when he died in January of this year. He was loved by his parents and his siblings and yet that was not enough. He overdosed on prescription medications. I think he was experimenting with that. His paths were not straight in the last year or so. I did not know about that as I did not know about the prescriptions. Finding him dead was horrible and it only hurts more because of the trouble he had been into. I felt like I lost my son in death but I also lost him before that. He was not who I thought he was so I feel naive, inadequate, disappointed, hurt, and so on. I cannot, unfortunately, say as the other mothers on this site can, that I know he is in heaven, that he is happy, without pain or suffering. I do not love him any less. It seems that I love him now more than ever and I miss him with every fiber of my flesh. I just hurt and worry and pray. I pray for you, too. I want to know, more than anything, that my son is happy. That he is at peace. I can deal with his death but I cannot bear the thought that he might not be at peace. That he might not be with God. Is God merciful? I have always believed in that but I would know that if yours and mine son died with their paths straightened. I hope we both find some peace soon.

Click here to add your own comments

Return to Lost Adult Child.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief

Free Griefwork

Free Stress

SBI Video Tour!