My Absolute True Love!!
Lost my husband Ed August 29, 2012 due kidney cancer. Actually a year before, had a kidney removed and was told it was a non-aggressive cancer so we'll catch it early and get rid of it. Wasn't given any meds and was actually told by the doctor that he no longer had cancer he "took it all out". Unfortunately, about this time last year his back started hurting. I figured it was because of his weight and he started planting a garden again after not doing for a few years. Well the pain got worse. Finally, July 31, 2012 at 5:30am he fell out of bed not breathing. I rushed over and tried to get him breathing again and i had just had surgery on my arm and it was wrapped up all the way to the shoulder. I actually had to rip it off to do what i could to get him breathing.
Ambulance came to get him thinking possibly a stroke. To find out that kidney cancer was in his lungs, spine and brain. Dont understand how a non-aggressive cancer can spread so quick.
Anyway, a month later he's gone. We had known each other for 8 years and were married September 3, 2011. He passed away 5 days before our first wedding anniversary. He was my whole life. I am so lost without him. He actually told me one time that if anything ever happed to him he wanted me to go on. I just didn't want to talk about it. I really don't know how to go on without him. I have NEVER NEVER love anyone else as much as i loved him. Don't understand how that perfect love we had was here one minute then gone before you know it. I really just want to be next to him. I visit his grave every morning. I just don't know what to do.
A perfectly healthy, big, strong, intellgent man taken down so quick by this DAM cancer!! Feel so alone!