My Angel up Above

by Kristal
(North Bay, ON, Canada)

My grandfather died May 12 of 2011 the day before my 29th birthday. I was in the hospital with my family, as my grandmother held his hand as he took his last breathe. I cried instantly it was the worst feeling in the world. to this day i have so much sorrow inside of me, I have dreams of that day that are so vivid, I cant sleep, my anxiety is so bad. I have dreams of weird and disturbing notions, I maybe blame a lot of things on myself. I had a baby the end of March of 2011, and he only seen her maybe a matter of 10 minutes, maybe I should have took her to see him more often. Both of my child are to small they will never remember him for the happy, soft, amazing man he was. I ask him for peace but nothing is getting better. I love him so much and miss him everyday.

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Dec 14, 2011
i know the feeling...
by: monica

my grandma was admited to the hospital on november 4 2011. She had a low BP and heart rate. She was unresponsive for a day. on the 5th she was doing a bit better, opening her eyes and squeezing our hands. On the 6th she was moving her head and nodding to us so we assumed she would be better soon. On the 7th she was finally breathing on her own and moving her head as well so the doctors decided to take her off the ventilators, I went home after visiting hours with my heart at peace because she was doing better. As I finally fell asleep, I received the worst grandma wasnt going to make it so I rushed to the hospital. As we all stood around her and held her hands, her breaths became slower. She took her last breath as I whispered Thank you into her ear. I seriously cry everyday for her. I keep thinking about how I would want to visit her in the nursing home, but I always said "tomorrow". I constantly think about how I should have been there for her more often. It pains me everyday and I feel like no one understands, so I totally get you. Just know you are not alone.

Nov 17, 2011
Grandparents Are Angels
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for you loss. Grandparents are such a special part of a child's life. I think back over the years about my own grand parents. Awesome bakers, gardeners, carpenters. All of my grandparents are gone now but always in my heart.
My husband passed away almost one year ago leaving behind a 2 yr., 3yr., and 11 year old grandsons. The 11 year old grandson will remember his grandpa but the two youngest ones wont'. I have prepared a pictorial dvd for them and written little books. I have all the details of his life written down for them to keep forever.
My children lost their grandpa (his dad) when they were very young (2 yr. and 6 yr.). My husband kept his dad's memory alive every day. Both of my children could tell anyone they come across everything about their grandpa Jones. We didn't let his memory die.
God bless and hold tight to your beautiful memories. Share them with your children. Your grandpa is with you every day. You can't see him or touch him.....but.....he's there.

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