My Angel Zendo Jessica Malise


Zendo and her uncle

Zendo and her uncle

Angel wings Zendo Malise

My baby girl was 9mnths old when GOD called her to him. It was a very short sickness and she was a happy healthy child. I can still hear her giggles even now. They said it was encephalitis but a more severe version. She had been fine on a Tuesday morning. When she woke from her sleep she had had convulsions and a high temperature, and was semi conscious. I have never been so frightened ever in my life. I wished I could trade places with her but I also have a four year old boy who needs me. It was a very long week at the hospital and day 3 she was in icu, motionless. I felt as if I let her down and she was in pain. She was declared brain dead and we switched off the machines with her daddy. I held her in my arms as her skin turned and I kissed her forehead. Then the nurses took her corpse and wrapped her with her pink blanki. I miss her so much I cry all the time. I watch her videos and hold her clothes and smell them. If wishes were horses I would ask for GOD to give me a little girl that looks just like her. She passed away on the 21st April 2012. At 12h30 a golden heart stopped beating. I carry her in my heart all the time. I want to have another baby. One can’t forget but it certainly gets better. My four year old tells me that his sister is in heaven and with God, and he plays and talks with her all the time.

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Jun 02, 2013
be blessed
by: Wandile Mkhize

Hey Mandabezitha, we met in Pretoria, South Africa.while you were on work related course, and i was then working there. I have tears in my eyes cause I remember you telling me you tragic story. God bless you, hope we meet again my friend.

Nov 20, 2012
My Angel Zendo Jessica Malise
by: Doreen U.K.

Mandabesitha I am sorry for your loss of your baby daughter. This disease of Encephalitis is a very serious disease and can cause different degrees of disability.
My husband was 58yrs. old when he got encephalitis his type was ADEM Acutedisseminatedencephalitis. It affected his legs and he could not stand. He then went on 5 years later to develop the worst cancer caused by working with asbestos and he died 6 months ago of this lung cancer.
You can go online and find the encephalitis website and read all the stories of people who have suffered and you will get the support you need. You will also be enlightened to the different kinds of this disease and how it is affecting one's life. Most people go into a coma for up to 6 weeks and when they come out of this they will be left with damage. This was a terrible time for us as a family with this disease. God saved my husband from this disease through the church praying for my husband. He recovered but was never the same person again. His personality changed and he suffered short term memory loss. I am sorry for your loss and the pain of losing a child.

Nov 20, 2012
Be blessed
by: Anonymous

Thank you for those comforting words. you will be in my prayers. GOD be wth you always and know that your mom loves you and only wants you to be happy.

Nov 19, 2012
Your angel
by: Anonymous

I weep for yor loss. Listen to your 4 year old. We had a loss of a baby boy in our family and his 3 year old brother told us that he talked and played with his baby brother all the time too.
I believe they are telling the truth.
There are many things about spirit that we don't understand. God bless you and your family.

Nov 19, 2012
Bless you
by: Anonymous

I pray God comforts you. I am thankful you are willing to have another baby. May God bless you. I wish I had someone to help ease the pain of losing my mom on September 1, 2012. I am lost. I wish I could "have " another mom. Pray for me, I will you.

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