I had my Tonio when I was 21 years old he was a funny, jokey kind of person, the light and center of all who were fortunate to have known him. He was killed in a car accident, October 29,2012, at the age of 28, he was driving too fast and was not wearing his seatbelt, he was killed instantly! At first I was numb and didn't feel a thing, my mind told me it was real, but I couldn't face it! Now almost 2 years later, I can't stop thinking of him and crying at the drop of a hat! My faith gives me the most comfort but at times there doesn't seem to be anything to help me, I miss him so terribly! I have constant thoughts as to where he is, whether I will remember his voice his face his laughter, I am so afraid to lose him completely, I look everywhere, books the internet, something to give me solace! Trying to comfort the pain of my only son I have left and his desperation, only compounds what I am going through! I don't believe I will get beyond this. I felt like I needed to post this, because I know that there are other folks who feel the same.