My baby died, I'm in tears I miss her so much

by Lauri
(Texas)

Hazel died May 3, 2009. Her name was Hazel she is a hamster. I loved her so much I only had her for 10 months that's it why I don't know why only 10 months.

She was bleeding on Friday night I cried I just cried. She was bleeding on Friday at night so we took you to the vet the next day Saturday they said you had a tumor. You went into surgery to remove it. I was so scared that she was going into surgery.

Then we got the phone call later saying she survived it and she's out of surgery. I was so happy jumping with joy, thought the worst was over. Thought life would just go on like it did before.

But then Sunday morning when I woke up to give your medicine I saw that some of your stitches were coming off. She started bleeding we called the vet she told us to put pressure on that area. We did we put pressure on it but she kept bleeding and her organs were just coming out. Our vet was not open so we rushed her to another vet. It was a long drive but she made it alive, my little fighter.

Mom had to drive the car so I had to hold you. I saw her organs I saw the blood in the kleenex that I was holding you with. I was crying and praying to ZGod don't let her die please, please don't let her. I kept telling her it will be okay it will be okay stroking your head and looking into your eyes. Then we got to the vet and I just ran in and handed her off to the doctor.

I thought I would go home with you but that was not the case. They took her in the back then let us go see her. She was on a warmer and a breathing machine. But they took the breathing machine off her when I entered the room. You could breath on your own so you were okay with it off.

I walked into the room and she knew me you did sob. She started moving when she saw me and perked up and I just cried I was like a baby. I couldn't hold her cause they had to hold her still cause her organs were hanging out. I stayed in the room for a while just petting her head and they said the organs were eating themself so we couldn't stitch her back up.

So we had to euthanize her. I was in shock, I didn't know what was really going on so I did not stay for her being euthanized. I kissed her head and told her I loved you those were my last words to her and then I walked out of the room. That was the best good bye I have ever done.

Our vet sent us a condolence card and the vet that we rushed her to gave us a condolence card too and did her paw prints. I loved her so much I just can't believe this happened.