MY BABY GIRL

by ANNE PARR
(MOUNT VERNON, WA)


MAISY WAS ALWAYS A SPECIAL DOG. SHE IS A MINI SCHNAUZER AND I'VE HAD HER SINCE SHE WAS 6 WEEKS OLD. SHE WAS AT MY SIDE FROM THEN ON. SHE SLEPT BY MY CHEST EVERYNIGHT. SHE WAS LIKE A CHILD OF MINE. SHE WAS 11

FOUR DAYS AGO SHE STARTED HAVING SEIZURES. WE TOOK HER TO THE EMERGENCY VET IN THE EARLY HOURS. THEY FOUND A MASS ON HER LIVER. WE TOOK HER TO HER VET HE DID MORE TESTS. ONE MINUTE SHE SEEMED OK AND THEN ANOTHER SEIZURE..HE STARTED HER ON PHENOBARBATOL TO CONTROL THE SEIZURES. SHE WAS GOING FOR A ULTRA SOUND. I GAVE HER HER PILL IN THE MORNING, A FEW HOURS LATER SHE WAS GONE. SHE JUST WENT AND LAID DOWN AND WENT TO SLEEP...HER VET THINKS HER HEART JUST COULDN'T HANDLE THE STRESS ANYMORE

MY HEART ACHES, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN HOLDING HER AND COMFORTING HER. I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST BREATHING HEAVY LIKE BEFORE....

SHE WAS SUCH A BIG PART OF MY LIFE, I FEEL LIKE I LET HER DOWN. MY HEART IS HURTING SO BAD, I KNOW SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE HER AND WHAT SHE MEANT TO ME. BUT IT STILL HURTS SO BAD. I DON'T THINK I WILL EVER GET OVER HER.

I HAVE ANOTHER DOG, SNICKER, SHE WILL BE 10. SHE HASN'T LEFT MY SIDE..I KNOW SHE IS MOURNING ALSO. SHE DOESN'T LIKE RIDING IN THE CAR LIKE MAISY. BUT I WILL ONLY LEAVE HER WHEN I HAVE TO WORK...OTHERWISE...SHE WILL BE MY SIDEKICK...NEVER TO REPLACE MAISY, BUT TO HELP COMFORT.

MY HUSBAND AND KIDS AND GRANDKIDS ARE TRYING TO HELP, BUT MAYBE IN TIME..

IT IS TRUE....DOGS ARE GIFTS FROM GOD AND HOLD SPECIAL PLACES IN OUR LIVES AND HEARTS...EVEN THOUGH MINE IS BREAKING RIGHT NOW. I KNOW SHE IS SITTING ON MY DAD'S LAP AND PLAYING WITH HER MOM AND DAD....

I MISS YOU SO MUCH MY BABY GIRL.....FOREVER IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS

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Mar 03, 2016
My Girl
by: Mom

3 yrs since you left my side and my heart still hurts everytime I look at your picture. I wish you could meet Stewie. He does the same stuff you did. Can't leave the toilet paper down :)
Your brother Muffasa is still here. He is showing his age 14 but he is ok. A bit blind and all but he still comes to me everytime I go to Aunties house.He loves the bed I made him.
I miss you so much.
I love you still my girl. I hope you are having fun with your mom and dad. Jump on Gramps lap for me and give him a big kiss

still in my heart and thoughts

Mar 09, 2015
I can't believe it's been 2 yrs
by: Mom

I still think of you all the time. Your brother Stewie is a good boy, he is calm like you and a snuggler. Sometimes he looks in my eyes and I swear I see you. You and he would have a wonderful time in the yard.

I still miss you so much, you are me little girl. Snicker is doing okay, just a bit cranky you know. but I love her to death and I don't know what I will do when she joins you.....

Still in my heart

Nov 04, 2014
Heart
by: Mom

I am really missing you today. My heart hurts so bad right now. Snicker is putting up with Stewie, but it's not the same. You will always have a big part of our hearts. Stewie lays in my arms and looks up at me the way you used to, and he is just full of puppyness.. I love him. Sometimes I just see you in his eyes the way he looks at me. I know I got him for a reason. Now if I could just get snicker to love him the way she loved you....

I love you my girl

Jun 29, 2014
A new love
by: Diane

I'm so happy you found another little soul to share your love, I'm sure Maisy is happy you are honoring her memory by opening your heart to this little one.It sounds like the little angel chose YOU, not the other way around!I think of you often and wondered how you were doing.I still feel an incredible sadness when I see my Chrissy's grave, but life is for the living and somehow we muddle through. Snickers will come around, good luck and be sure to give them both a kiss for me!

Jun 26, 2014
New Brother
by: MOM

I was walking out of walmart the other day and there was this lady sitting there with a huddle of puppies.. they were all snuggled together on the hot cement. It was all I could do not to give her a piece of my mind. At least she had water for them. As me and the boys walked by, one little guy got up and just started following us. I picked him up and he just looked into my eyes. You know your mom is a sucker for a cute face, but there was something in his eyes. She wanted $50 for them, I told her I only had $36 in my pocket and she said okay....I guess it was meant to be. Snicker doesn't like him much, but at least she doesn't snap at him... just runs away. So now there is another little hairball here, his name is Stewie and he is a little pistol... He will never replace you, no dog can. You and Snicker have the biggest part of my heart....I still think about you and how you loved the summer days just laying in the grass.... <3

Apr 24, 2014
Missing our babies
by: Diane

I saw you posted again and it struck me that even though it's been over a year for both of us, we are still hurting inside. Last night I was watching TV and out of the blue started thinking about my Chrissy and how much she would have enjoyed this spring, and my stomach dropped and the tears started flowing. I'm sure you are like me, it's better, but we still have our moments. I have been on The Cat Site since, offering comfort to all the people who post on the Crossing the Bridge section.I definitely remember how much I was hurting and the guilt and the sorrow that still follow me today. I hope I am helping, it does seem to help me too. I guess I just wanted you to know you are not alone in your grief, and sharing it with someone else does seem to help. Memories are one of the best legacies that exists, treasure them and share with others who understand. And I know we both have wonderful memories in our hearts. Take care, I'll keep in touch if you want me to through your site

Apr 23, 2014
Pictures
by: Mom

I was looking for some pictures and found some of you. You would always guard the boys when they were babies. No matter where they slept, you were right beside them... watching over them. I know they miss you terribly. They tell me all the time.

I hope you are having a wonderful time up there and sitting with grandpa

love

Mom

Apr 04, 2014
sunny day
by: Mom

It was a beautiful day today. The sun was shining in the back yard and I could just imagine you out there laying on your back in the sun. I miss you so much my girl.
I love you


Mar 06, 2014
Your beautiful baby girl.
by: Diane

I just went through my own one year anniversary so I know the bittersweet feelings you get. Sometimes I think of Chrissy and my stomach just drops, other times I feel happy remembering her sweet little face. It's better, but I don't think I'll ever get over her death, I just learn to live with it. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, we're just two broken hearted 'mommies' that miss their babies. God bless and take care.

Mar 06, 2014
One Year
by: Mom

One year ago today my sweet little girl crosses the bridge. I can't believe it has already been a year. My heart still breaks when I think of how much I miss her. Then I think of all the crazy funny things she used to do and my heart fills with joy for a while. I miss her so bad, she was such a big part of me.

Maisy Malinka Rose Parr..... I will always miss you with all my heart. I just wish the rainbow bridge had visiting hours...


Love Mom and Dad

Nov 20, 2013
THANKSGIVING
by: MOM

I am thankfull for the 11+ wonderful years you gave me......I still miss you tons and my heart still aches. These holidays are going to be rough.
love love love love

Oct 14, 2013
MY LOVE
by: MOM

Thank you for your words...Maisy was my child in a sense...she knew what I was doing before I did most of the time and was constantly at my side. those dogs have a sense and something about them that make them special...I read that the schnauzer is a dog with a human brain, I think a heart also...I still think about her a lot and cry, but then I remember that if I sniffed, sneezed she would get up and give me a look and move to another spot...that makes me laugh because I would do it on purpose just to watch her response.. I want to thank you again and it will get a bit easier, but not for a long time... I have a yorkie that is 2 yrs younger than maisy and she is finally getting back to herself. she misses her sister terribly, maisy is all she ever knew...

Maisy my girl, my friend Mila lost her beloved Masala the other day. please take care of him, he was a very sweet old gentleman.

Oct 09, 2013
Lost my beautiful schnauzer today, Sadiemae
by: Gail

When I saw your comments and picture, I was amazed at how much our stories are the same. My Sadiemae looked just like your sweet dog. She started having seizures in May and seemed better after medication, but she developed congestive heart failure and had to be put to sleep this morning. She was my baby and was like my child. She was 13 years old. I cannot express the grief I feel. My grandchildren, children and husband have been so sweet, but all I can do is cry and miss her terribly. I too feel that I have lost a piece of my heart that won't ever heal. I too can't forget the way she looked at me this morning when I had to say goodbye. She had been in pain and couldn't breathe last night and I knew it was time to let her go. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I just wanted to hold on to her and never let go. Just wanted you to know I understand your pain and grief. I know one day I will see her again and that makes losing her almost bearable.

Oct 07, 2013
<3 <3
by: MOM

I STILL MISS YOU EVERY DAY. I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SNUGGLE ON THE COLD NIGHTS....

Aug 10, 2013
GRANDSONS
by: MOM

Kelsey and the boys were here this week and all the boys kept saying is that they miss you very much. You used to always sleep with Ty and there was a spot there for you still.
I still think of you every day and miss you a lot... I love you

Jun 01, 2013
Lulu
by: Mom

Well, as you probably figured....snicker and Lulu didn't get along at all, mostley your sister snick. But a wonderful thing happened. You know that I would never give up on a animal no matter what. I hadn't given up on Lu, when I got in contact with Lisa. Her baby passed 3 yrs ago and she was ready for another. She came over and Lu and her hit it off.... they were ment for each other..both small and fiesty. A match made in heaven...and snicker is happy now, she just misses you so much that she didn't want another dog to take your place....wise ol soul she is. So now everything is back to normal, as it can be without you my heart. I still see your look and your eyes when I think of you....but snick is trying to make up for it...she even wants to go in the car.
Miss you forever love you

May 18, 2013
Lulu
by: Mom

Well, I went to the shelter today and there was this little furry dog. She looked right at me and went and got her toy for me. she looked so needy and lost. So here she is, Snicker is a little rough with her at first, but they are doing better. May you would have loved her....she loves toys and running and playing in the yard. You guys would have been best buds. She is a mix of somethings small...she has a lot to learn, but she will.
I still miss you so bad and think of you all the time. I always will, you are my heart. If you have any power, please help snicker heal so she can enjoy this little girl.
YOU ARE MY ANGEL

May 06, 2013
Maymay
by: Mom

It's been 2 months today....I still miss you like it was yesterday. I tried to sleep in the front bedroom lastnight and I kept waiting for your little chubby self to step over me and snuggle up...I just can't do it yet. Snicker keeps trying to head that way to go to bed, but not yet. We are looking for a sister for Snick, it is hard because I keep thinking of you. There are so many needing homes, and you always like other dogs so I know you would be happy if you were here. I miss you so much....

Apr 20, 2013
MY GIRL
by: MOM

I HAVE BEEN THINKIG A LOT ABOUT YOU LATELY....I REALLY MISS YOU SO MUCH. I KNOW YOU ARE NOT HURTING OR SICK ANYMORE AND PLAYING WITH K.C. AND GRAMPS....BUT MY HEART STILL ACHES FOR YOUR FURRY LITTLE SELF.....

LOVE YOU

Mar 25, 2013
Beautiful Maisey
by: Diane

Thank you for YOUR kind words. I know time helps but once in a while the pain comes back like a huge wave and kind of engulfs you. I just pray that I will stop seeing her raising her head that one last time, I pray that she didn't suffer! I still ask for her forgiveness, and tell her every day how much I love her. I go to the shelter too, but I'm too afraid now to adopt one, I'm afraid I'll go first and they'll be left behind, I see too many down there beacause their owners died.I've got two babies left and don't know how I'm going to take the heartache when they go, hopefully yaers from now. I've been leaving the adoption fee with the shelter, it's for these older babies that have a hard time getting adopted. It helps, especially for an older person that really wants to adopt but can't afford all the initial fees. I do this in Chrissy's name. So far I've gotten 4 adopted!

Mar 22, 2013
Your Baby Girl
by: Diane

Time does help to ease the pain, although it can flare up again in an instant when you think of your baby. I don't blame you for thinking of getting a companion for Snicker, you are helping your remaining baby, not replacing the one that is gone.That can never be done because she is alive in your heart forever.Bless you for caring so much, may you find happiness in your future.Your heart sounds like it is big enough to hold much more love, good luck!

Mar 22, 2013
time
by: mom

IT'S GETTING A LITTLE BETTER...DON'T CRY AS MUCH. I TOOK SNICKS TO THE VET YESTERDAY. I DIDN'T CRY UNTIL I LEFT. I MISS HER SO MUCH.......I THINK ABOUT HER EVERYDAY....THE VET THOUGHT SNICKER NEEDED A FRIEND SO SHE CAN GET SOME EXERCISE....NO ONE CAN REPLACE MY MAISY GIRL, BUT I THINK HE IS RIGHT. SNICKER NEEDS SOME COMPANY, SHE HAS NEVER BEEN ALONE.....

Mar 12, 2013
Thank you
by: Anne

I just want to thank everyone for the wonderful words and condolenses....it has helped a lot. Diane, I don't think I know you, you are a person after my own heart. A true animal lover....your words your words hit home. Maisy is home now, we had her cremated, and it seems to be a bit easier knowing that part of her is still here with me. I know she is romping with her mom and dad, but one day I will see her again, with gus and kc...we will all be happy together

Thank you all again

Mar 11, 2013
Beautiful Baby Girl
by: Diane

Please accept my condolences, I know it is so hard to lose a loved one. I really do believe she tried to spare you, and that is why you didn't know she was dying. Also, I know she told you she made it OK, my Chrissy told us through a shooting star. Please know she knew she was loved, she'll be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge, RIP Baby Girl

Mar 10, 2013
MISS YOU
by: SNICKER

MAISY,I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM TAKING CARE OF MOM AND DAD. I HAVEN'T LET MOM OUT OF MY SIGHT. ONLY WHEN SHE WENT TO WORK ON FRIDAY. I EVEN GO IN THE CAR WITH HER WHENEVER SHE GOES SOMEPLACE. YOU KNOW I DON'T REALLY LIKE IT. SHE WILL GET BETTER WITH TIME. YOU ARE SUCH A BIG PIECE OF HER LIFE. I WILL KEEP CARE OF THEM..I KNOW YOU ARE WITH YOUR MOM AND DAD AND KC. SO BE HAPPY AND DON'T WORRY...I GOT IT


LOVE AND MISS YOU
YOUR SIDEKICK
SNICKER

Mar 10, 2013
ONE BARK
by: YOUR MOM

THIS MORNING I WAS AWAKEN BY ONE SINGLE BARK. IT WAS YOUR BARK I JUST KNOW IT. WERE YOU LETTING ME KNOW YOU ARE OKAY? TO LET ME KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT UPSET WITH ME, AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. TO LET ME KNOW YOU CROSSED THE BRIDGE TO BE WITH YOUR MOM AND DAD AND K.C.. THEY TOOK YOU YESTERDAY TO PUT YOU TO REST. YOU WILL BE BACK HOME TOMORROW. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SNICKER HAS BEEN HERE HELPING ME HEAL. EVERY TIME I START TO FEEL UPSET OR CRY, SHE IS HERE LICKING ME. I JUST WISH YOU WERE TOO. I MISS YOU MY GIRL BUT I KNOW YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE WITH FREEDOM FROM PAIN AND SUFFERING....I WILL SEE YOU, AND ALWAYS SEE YOU IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS.....

LOVE
MOM AND DAD

Mar 08, 2013
YOUR MAISY
by: MOM

I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MISS HER. & YOUR SISTER HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN YOUR HEARTS FOR YOUR ANIMALS. SHE IS GONE NOW TO A BETTER PLACE & DOESN'T HURT ANYMORE. SHE IS WITH HER MOM & DAD, CHIEF & CHYNA. I'M SURE DAD IS PLAYING WITH THEM & THEY ARE GIVING HIM A BAD TIME. NOW THEY HAVE A CHANCE TO MEET BOBBY. JUST GO ON WITH YOUR LITTLE
SNICKER BECAUSE I'M SURE SHE MISSES MAISY TOO.
LOVE, MOM

Mar 08, 2013
hugs
by: Jody

You will always have a special place in your heart for Maisy, she was a special friend that will never be replaced. You were there for her and she knew that even at the end. I'm sure she wanted to go be by herself to relax and cross over to a better place with no more pain or suffering. I'm sure Maisy spirt is still at your side laying on your chest and comforting you during this time of grief. When thinking of times Maisy made you smile remember how lucky you were to have such a wonderful friend.

Mar 08, 2013
if come back as a dog I want you to be my mom
by: Jenny

Sweetie, I feel your pain, when I lost my Toto 12ys ago, I cried till I thought I would go crazy, I was so fortunate to have my mijito for 16yrs, like you Toto was by my side, the kids would joke when they could not find me they would just call out for Toto and then they knew where I was. The pain in time will soften but not go completely away, but you will feel your baby around you and the wonderful memories will help you through this period where your heart feels so heavy. Yu are a wonderful Mom not only to your children and grandbabies but also to your Snickers and always to your Maisey. Maisey knew you were worried and so concerned for her and she never felt alone even when you felt you should have held her in her last moments but you were holding her as always in your heart and I know Maisey felt that. I am praying for you that you feel all our love that is being channeled to you and find peace. te quiero muchisimo mi amiga

Mar 08, 2013
Dogs are angels in disguise
by: Anonymous

My heart went out to you, I know how painful it is to lose your beloved companion and child. It is no less painful than losing a human family member.

May you be comforted and know you will see Maisie again someday.

Mar 08, 2013
She's with my boy.
by: Lisa Mirante

Dearest Anne, I KNOW how much you loved her, my heart breaks for you. Not sure if you know the story of how I lost my boy but it was just as sudden and just as tragic. I was on vacation visiting my friend in Kansas City. I left him with my sister, she had two dogs then a pug and a mix. The three of them had been together before so neither one of us thought anything of leaving them alone during the day in the house. My niece came home to find my baby, he had been attacked. They rushed him to the vet, they tried to save him but to no avail. I was hundreds of miles and a 6 hour journey away from him. It was a nightmare come true. I lost 2 weeks of my life and it changed who I am. I still get teary over leaving him, I still feel it's my fault. I completely understand how you feel. They leave when they are suppose to, we're so blessed to have these angels in our lives. He was my child and will always be. I loved your Maisey. Just know she will always be by your side and is still sleeping on your chest at night. I still feel my Buddha boy with me 4 years later. It is a cruel fate that we out live them and I don't believe there is a deeper love on the planet. Sending you love and comfort at this difficult time. They are running and playing over the Rainbow Bridge.

Mar 07, 2013
You're not alone
by: Jody

It is so hard to lose one of our animal friends. They are closer than most family even, and love us unconditionally.

I'm sure Maisy knew how much you loved her, even at the very last moment.

Mar 07, 2013
Sweet little pup!
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. I remember when you first brought her home! I loved coming over to play with her after school. I also had the most fun puppy sitting for you when you had to be away. You gave her the happiest life a dog could have. She will be missed.

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