I come from a country where you cannot be an unwed mother. Where love with some one who is not from your community is not easy. But I did both, fell in love with someone from another community and got pregnant. We had been in a relationship for almost 5 years, when this happened. How long can two people in love stop themselves.
Today, Jan 5th 2011, I got to know I am pregnant, scared of family and society not accepting me and my child, I aborted the child on the same day. I was almost 6 weeks pregnant. I just saw my baby in the scan like a small dot. Thats the only memory I hold of that child. That abortion was not only physically painful, it killed something inside me forever. Now, I am married to the same man I loved, but I am so scared of having another child. Today, my baby would have been with me. We had to run away and get married, what if I had the courage to give birth to my child also, my baby would have been with me. I killed my child, my husband killed him. Now something inside me never wants any child ever. Though I never saw the baby, dint hold for 9 months in me, dint carry him/her in my arms, still the mother in me died with my baby. Its been two years and it is painful every single day to live without my baby who would have may be even started walking by now.