My beautiful baby Pepper
The worst part is not being there. Whilst away at college, my mom was looking after my 7 year old Yorkie, Pepper, when she got an infection and just slipped away... I feel terrible that I wasn't there for her, and completely shocked that this happened. It was hard to be away from her for all these years, but I will have finished in a month and I would have never left her again. Along with the guilt of leaving her, I also feel incredibly guilty because I just don't have the time to grieve right now, what with this being the end of my last year of college. So I tried to force myself to accept it and get through these next few weeks until I came home, and could visit her grave and grieve properly for her, with all the respect that she's due. But I can't do it. I can't stop thinking about her and everything she meant to me and how much I miss her. And I know that however I manage to get through these weeks, it will all come crashing over me again when I go home and she doesn't have her beautiful face pressed up against the car window waiting to see me. I had so much planned for when I got back. I was going to make sure she knew that I was hers again, and that I would never leave her. But she was in pain before she passed, and it is somewhat consoling to know that she isn't anymore.
Pepper, I love you so much and I will never forget you. Rest in peace, my sweet, sweet Angel.
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