My beautiful boy buli.. You will be in my heart forever!

by Helen

My little boy buli was with me since he was a kitten and 17 years later I cherish so many great memories with him. He was the most gentle & affectionate cat you could ever meet. He would always wait by the front of the house until i got home.

He started losing so much weight, and after doing numerous blood tests & scans the vet just couldn't understand what was happening to him. He said that he thought cancer had taken over him and was in no state for any biopsies or surgery. His weight was dropping off him so quickly.. Everytime I would pat him or cuddle him I could feel every bone in his body. We would try and feed him every couple of hours to see if he could put some weight on and every vet visit within days his weight would get less and less.
I just couldn't understand it! I didn't know what else to do!! I didn't want to lose him but he was deteriorating before our eyes.

II wasn't ready or prepared for this. I just didn't want to believe it. But the day had come when he just had no energy left to fight it. He was weak, frail and just couldn't eat. I couldn't let him suffer anymore, I just had to be strong for his sake. We had the heart renching decision to make and I knew it was time.

Only just two days ago I had to say goodbye to my loved one, he was my baby.. My everything! I can't get the image of him being put to sleep in front of me, but I had to find the strength to be there with him through this. My heart is shattered in a million pieces. I can't eat, sleep or stop thinking about him. I don't know how I am going to cope through this. I cant stop the tears. It just hurts so much!!!

I miss & love you so much buli... You can never be replaced or forgotten.

Love you always my baby xxx

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Jun 12, 2015
so good
by: Jareco Morgan

Bad things always tend to happen in life. It is all about bumps and turns. What matters is how well you ride though this bad road and achieve things on the way. He will always be in your heart and even you know it. Move on and carry on with your life. Even he would want that.

Jan 11, 2013
Thanks Sherrie
by: Helen

Thanks for your comment Sherrie. I know exactly how your feeling. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him and look at his photos. Especially when they are a big part of your life for so many years. The pain gets easier over time. And sometimes I just break down in tears. It's all part of the grieving process. And I'm sure minx is up in heaven with buli and looking down on us. I do believe someday we will meet again. Rest in peace minx

Jan 08, 2013
Thank you
by: Sherrie

Thank you for sharing your story. We had to put our "kitten", Minx down on Sunday, January 6, 2013. She was 18 1/2 years old. The pain is indescribable, the most painful and intense I have ever felt! Everything we do reminds us of her and then the tears come again...she will forever live in my heart. I know the pain will always be there but pray for you and me that it will subside a little with time. As your buli - she was an integral part of every aspect of our life. I firmly believe that buli will be waiting for you on the other side. God Bless You!

Dec 10, 2012
Thanks phyllis
by: Anonymous

Thank you for your comment. At this time i dont feel ready to get a new kitten. I feel like buli could never be replaced but i do understand how focusing on a new pet could ease the pain alittle. Its all just happened so at this time i dont feel ready but possibly in the future i may. Thank you :)

Dec 10, 2012
thank you doreen
by: helen

I am so sorry about your loss doreen. That must of been a very difficult time for you too. Especially being your husband too. Ive never really had to deal with death much and being there and seeing my cat go through this has been extremely hard. I hope you can in time feel better and wish you all the best. It does help to talk about your feelings though. Take care of yourself.

Dec 10, 2012
My beautiful boy buli... You will be in my heart forever!
by: Doreen U.K.

Helen I am sorry for your loss of your cat Buli...
My husband died of cancer 7 months ago and I know how debilitating this is with not eating, and losing weight along with all the other side effects of this illness. It is no different for a pet than a person. The Pain and loss is just as painfull and unbearable. I had to watch my husband die slowly over 3yrs. of suffering a lot. It is different for pets. They get put to sleep but the agony, and feelings of fear of them not waking up is the same. GONE FOREVER. This is what is hard to bear. It is good you were present, but also very hard. You will feel this delayed reaction now when it is all over. We love throughout our life and pay the price at death. But the good memories we will have forever when the dust of death has cleared.
You should not deny yourself another cat or other pet in life. Just don't hold them so tightly but Love and be ready to release them when the time comes. You will always have rich memories. Even keep a Journal for each pet and record your memories of Life with your pets. This would be good to do as we go on in life for all the people that mean so much to us. It is amazing how writing out our thoughts and feeling can help us to know of what is going on inside us. it is also very therapeutic and a Healing experience. I wish you well in the future and many happy memories of future pets should you have them. Till then cry all you need to as an expression for your Love and Sorrow and this will get less in time.

Dec 09, 2012
I am so sorry
by: phyllis

I kmow the pain & it never totally leaves, please get you a new tiny baby kitty from a good Mommy, you will have many years of love from a new kity your ole boy would want to to!

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