My beautiful boy Josh.xx

by Karen
(Australia.)

Its been 11 months and 1 day since you left me and i cry all day every day.I miss and love you all the time.We still have no clue what happen to you and still waiting on the Coroner.I look at your photo and say to myself why you.And why did this happen to a beautiful respectful loving son.He never said a bad word to anyone.I love and miss you so much it hurts so bad and every day is getting more unbearable to live with.I love you my baby boy.Your ever loving mum.You were only 14 yrs old not fair.xx

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Sep 12, 2012
Cancer
by: Steve

I have never lost a child to cancer

but i did lose my grandad to pancreatic cancer

which was one hell of a nightmare/shock he did not

tell anyone not even my gran i only found out when

he was rushed to the hospice and by the time we

got there sadly it was to late he had already died

despite my dads fast driving there is not a moment

goes by when i do not miss or think about him its hard knowing he not here anymore im 28 years old and
i still struggle to understand the why and how i often think why him and not me?
am allways here 4u if you ever want to talk my email address is stevenjohnsmith1983@hotmail.co.uk

Thinking of you hun xxxxxxx from Steve in England

Jul 19, 2012
LOST
by: Doreen U.K.

Dear Anonymous, I am sorry for your loss of your mother from cancer. You say your mother's greatest fear was getting cancer and leaving you and both have happened and now you don't know what to do. It is HELL. Yes it is. You are not alone. We are here to support you. my email is doreenelkington@aol.com for anyone wanting to just talk and find healing through this. Life is not fair. Even if you try to live a good life and do not harm to others you will not be spared pain in life. Because we live in a sinfull world God permitted death. It was never in his plan. It is the result of sin. Even if we life a good life we are not spared death. it is part of the package of life. It will come to all of us. BUT saying this. Grief is very painfull. It is not something we can avoid. We have to go throught this to get the healing. It is often a slow process. Go and get bereavement counselling. You will be given the space to offload your pain and things will start to improve. Life will improve in time. It is the getting there that is slow and painfull. By nature we are impatient and want it to be over now so we can move on quickly.
Find people, friends, extended family to support you. If you get insensitive people walk away from them and put new people in your life. People who will encourage you and lift you up till you can be in a better place with your grief. Life will get better in time. You will survive this loss and pain in time. Often it feels as if grief will kill us. We will die from grief. That is how painful it is for everyone grieving. Go on one day at a time. Handle only the problems of that day. A new Day will bring new challenges. You will become a stronger person from your grief and you will SURVIVE.

Jul 18, 2012
Lost
by: Anonymous

I can't relate to loosing a child but I am a son who lost his mother I was an only child my mothers greatest fear was cancer and leaving me. Well both happened. Now both my parents gone with cancer. The pain of loosing my mother is killing me I can't stand it going on without her seems impossible. Why me? What did I do. Her death was just horrible her pain was indescribable. We were good simple people my mother lived for me and now what am I supposed to do this is hell. I can't think Of anything worse

Jul 18, 2012
Lost
by: Anonymous

I can't relate to loosing a child but I am a son who lost his mother I was an only child my mothers greatest fear was cancer and leaving me. Well both happened. Now both my parents gone with cancer. The pain of loosing my mother is killing me I can't stand it going on without her seems impossible. Why me? What did I do. Her death was just horrible her pain was indescribable. We were good simple people my mother lived for me and now what am I supposed to do this is hell. I can't think Of anything worse

Jul 18, 2012
My beautiful boy Josh
by: Doreen U.K.

Karen I am so sorry for the loss of your 14yr. old son. You are still waiting on the coroner report and this waiting time is hard to bear. The loss of a child is such a painfull experience. Especially one so young. The pain and grief is unbearable. We will wonder how we can get through this to live another day. You can only do this one day at a time. We expect to die before our children and when this doesn't happen our world is turned upside down. You will probably benefit from bereavement counselling to help you move forward from the pain and loss.
Don't look too far ahead as you will see the mountain you have to climb and it will overwhelm you. I hope that you will be able to cope and have supportive people around you to help make your grief journey more bearable.

Jul 18, 2012
God Bless Josh
by: Ruth Mattucci

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. Its been 2 years since my only child, my son Mikey died in his sleep. This thing that happened to our children is just horrific, Moms and sons are so special. They are the light of our lives and the bond is just incredible. I hope both of you will take what I say to be so. You will go through hell for a long time,every part of you will feel their absence. You will feel like you are going crazy and will think about not being here. I am sure you feel most of this now, it ebbs and flows and works its way into your life. Here this, you will never and I mean never lose that conection to your son. It will of course be very different and not what we want, (of course not) but nothing can seperate you from your child, not even death. My Michael is with me in my heart and soul, I see him when I look in the mirror. I wait patiently until we see each other again and I can once more mess up his hair and he will let me and smile like he used to when I did that. God bless you. Ruth

Jul 18, 2012
sorry for your loss
by: martha

my son just passed away two months ago we also do not know why. I feel your pain I also cry everyday I have not been in my sons room everything remains as he left it I miss him so much he was our light I the same is you keep saying it is not fair my son had just started college was a pre med student had the whole world before him he encouraged so many kids to believe in god and to go to school. i keep asking myself why him why my son. I so hate that you have to endure this pain because I know exactly how you feel.

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