My beautiful girl

by Karen
(Tennessee)

I lost my beautiful 21 year old daughter December 5, 2009. She was on her way to work, the road was slippery. She lost control and was thrown from her vehicle. She was then impaled on a tree. She did live for a few moments but did not survive the trip to the hospital. If she would have had her seat belt on she would have survived.

My heart aches each and every day. She was not my only child but we did have so many hopes and dreams, a wedding some day...and grandbabies. She was the mother hen of her siblings and I always knew she would be a wonderful mother someday. I just continue to go over and over that day. Why? Why my precious baby.

My heart will never heal. The days do get easier. Many of them I pretend that I am fine. But I just can't imagine going through the rest of my life without her in it. Some days it seems like it was yesterday. Today it feels like it's been forever since I've seen her smile. I looked and looked for a sign. The kind they show in movies. I have no sign. The only thing I have right now is pain. No parent should have to endure this. I would give everything I have for my beautiful girl to have the chance to live again.