my beautiful mum xx

by lau
(england)

I lost my mum on the 1st oct 2010, she died from a heart attack. I had only seen her an hour before she passed away and the last thing we said to each other was "love you" which im so happy about.

she was my best friend, she was beautiful, funny, kind and was everyones mum, i cant express how much i miss her, i miss her silly txts, her smile and her hugs.

I can still here her giggle and "snort" when she got over excited.

I feel very empty at the min and keep having that horrid "gone forever" feeling! i can go days without crying but i feel it building up inside me and then i have days like today wen i cry non stop.

I have managed to carry on working but sometimes i just feel like i could stay in bed all day and not face the world.

I have some amazing friends and sisters but some how is still feel very alone!

I know i can get through this, just one day at a time


lau xx