My beautiful Nicola
My eldest daughter Nicola was only 32 when we lost her at 6.06 on Thursday evening 6th Dec 2012. She was amazing, beautiful, kind, intelligent and very funny and I still cannot believe she's gone. I know people mean well when they say that time will ease the pain but unless they've lost a child how on earth can they know when the pain will go! My life now is filled with a deep, gut-wrenching sadness that never leaves me and I wish every day that God had taken me instead of my child. Does anyone else feel worse now that when this nightmare began? I know I do. I feel less able to cope with the most trivial things and just feel sick and tired most of the time. I send my deepest sympathy to all who of you who are going through this terrible trial and pray that God blesses us with a modicum of peace somewhere through this horrendous journey.