My beautiful wife

by Steve Mattson
(Omaha, Ne. 68118)

In loving memory of my beautiful wife, Lisa Ann Mattson 9-1-61 to 6-6-12 A message from my heart to your soul. Lisa, you are the love of my life, my partner, my best friend, my loving wife. With angels wings, you have departed. I miss you so and I am brokenhearted. When I'm alone and grasping for memories, I am blessed with visions of your loving smile and the warmth of your tender touch. I know you loved me very much. You were my very own angel and made life worth living. Then God called you home to be with Him in heaven. The love we shared will carry me for the rest of my days. My tears fuel the fire of love lost and I look forward to joining you in the Kingdom of heaven. You left far to soon, I have so much love left over. Our time together was cut short, but God does not make mistakes. I trust his promise and can only imagine the joy of sharing eternity with you and praising our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Thank you for loving me. Your loving husband, Steve.

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Nov 16, 2014
Thank You
by: David

Steve, I enjoyed reading your posts. I lost my my on June 30, 2014. Each and every day she showed me what Heaven would be like. Now, I am left without her in what is my Hell. As with you, with breathless anticipation I wait for God to call me Home so I can spend eternity with her. I miss and love my wife with everything that I am.

Sep 02, 2014
Happy Birthday Mommy
by: Tyke the Loving Dog

Happy Birthday Mommy I sure do miss you! You are the best mommy I ever had, all my friends wanted you to be their mom too!. Daddy's pretty nice to me but you were always my favorite. I loved going bye bye car with you. I miss that a lot. You're more fun than Daddy is but he tries. I loved going with you on walks and to the park and all that other fun stuff. You always hugged on me and snuggled all the time. Wish you would do it again! None of my friends could believe how lucky I am. Daddy crys a lot, I wonder why? He never talks to me much about you anymore but he always kisses your picture every night. Sometimes I look around and wonder where you are. It almost seems like you're here but I just can't find you. Sometimes I get scared that I will not ever find you. I won't give up on you, don't give up on me, I'll keep on looking. You always told me I was the very best dog in the world of dogs. You are the very best Mommy in the whole world of Mommies. Your loving dog, Tyke Eric Mattson

Sep 02, 2014
Your 3rd Birthday with jesus
by: Steve Mattson

Happy Birthday Lisa

My heart and my thoughts are with you on this, your third birthday in Heaven. I miss you so very much. I miss our two hearts growing older together. I miss sharing our thoughts, our hopes, and our visions of what life's dreams could become as we approached and embraced the realization that we were on the downhill side of life. By that I mean it's easier to coast downhill than it is to pedal uphill. We didn't always have it easy but it was always easier because of you and knowing I had your complete love and support in all things. Your love continues to be a guiding light. I know you are with me and when God chooses we will be together once again though the grace and sacrifice of His son, Jesus Christ.
Love never dies, it only continues to grow. Love, Me

Aug 11, 2014
Love Story
by: Steve Mattson

Lisa, today is my third birthday without you. Another year, another milestone, another painful reminder of our love story and how much I miss you still.
Lisa, my beautiful wife, you taught me how to love without compromise, without question, unconditionally and unforgettably.
As I continue to languish over losing you, and my mind tries to envision days past, I have come to realize that REAL love stories never truly have an ending.......the next chapter will be written when God chooses to call me home. Until then, I will continue to count the special moments and memories that are locked forever in my heart. I remain devoted to you and always will.
Love,
Me

Sep 01, 2013
Happy Birthday Lisa
by: Steve Mattson

Happy Birthday Lisa,
I can't begin to tell you how much I miss you, just as much today as on your last birthday.
I don't need a special day to remind me of what you mean to me, I am certain you can still feel the love, as I do, but time goes by so slowly without you. Not a single day goes by that I don't think about you. You will remain in my heart and on my mind until God calls me home to be reunited with you. I love you and I really miss you a lot. Love me.

Aug 24, 2013
Just Once More
by: Steve Mattson

Just Once More

Another birthday without you. Here is my birthday wish, another sad refrain of lost love.
Just once more, I would love to have you call and interrupt me at work only to hear you say "I just called to say I love you, nothing more."
Just once more, hearing you ask "What would you like for dinner?"
Just once more, having you call me with a list of what you want me to pick up from the store.
Just once more having you ask me to help you re-pot your plants or help with something around the house.
I wish that I could, just once more, see you smile or hear you laugh.
Just once more, to feel the love when your touch would comfort me.
I am saddened knowing that there will be no more hugs, no more kisses, no more special moments, no more whispers of the dreams we dared to share.
I'm sorry for all the times I would say "Just a minute", or "Not now" or "Can I call you right back?"
I am heartbroken knowing that "Just once more" can never be again in this lifetime but that "Once again" is possible through the sacrifice and love of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. When the time is right, God will reunite us "Just once more." I will love you forevermore, love me.

Jun 21, 2013
Happy Anniversary Lisa
by: Steve Mattson

Happy Anniversary Lisa

Twenty two years ago today, my life became complete.
Not only did you agree to become my wife, but my entire world. You were always loving, supportive, a great mother, and a partner, but you were also my best friend. I thank God for our time together and the love we shared. It was magnificent.
Then on June 6th, 2012 my world came crashing down. You were gone. Since then, I continue to spiral downward. I now know what "alone" truly means. Not alone physically, I still see family and friends often, but the saddest thing is a lonely heart. Our two hearts, intertwined, beating for each other. What a beautiful feeling that was. The only feeling left is one of hope, hope that we are reunited in the Kingdom of God soon. I love you and miss you so very much.
Love me.


Jun 06, 2013
Angel For One Year
by: Steve Mattson

Angel For One Year.
Lisa my darling;
You have been gone one year now, seems like yesterday and at the same time, forever.
You are still alive in my heart and mind. Every breath I take, every smile, every heartache, every moment, include you. You are with me always.
In the air that I breathe, in my dreams, in every part of my being,
l know you are still by my side.
I miss your tender touch, your warm caresses, your beautiful smile. Everything about you.
Family and friends constantly surround me but no one really knows the depth of my loss.
It's like I'm wandering aimlessly amid many familiar places and faces and, at the same time, lonely and hopelessly lost.
Gone from this earth and my side, but never, ever forgotten, forever indelibly etched in my mind.
Until we are reunited by God's grace, you will remain my one true love.
I will always love you!
Love me.

Jun 06, 2013
Angel For One Year
by: Steve Mattson

Angel For One Year.
Lisa my darling;
You have been gone one year now, seems like yesterday and at the same time, forever.
You are still alive in my heart and mind. Every breath I take, every smile, every heartache, every moment, include you. You are with me always.
In the air that I breathe, in my dreams, in every part of my being,
l know you are still by my side.
I miss your tender touch, your warm caresses, your beautiful smile. Everything about you.
Family and friends constantly surround me but no one really knows the depth of my loss.
It's like I'm wandering aimlessly amid many familiar places and faces and, at the same time, lonely and hopelessly lost.
Gone from this earth and my side, but never, ever forgotten, forever indelibly etched in my mind.
Until we are reunited by God's grace, you will remain my one true love.
I will always love you!
Love me.

May 27, 2013
Memorial Day 2013
by: Steve Mattson

Memorial Day 2013

It is my first Memorial Day without you by my side. You were always a comfort to me and others as we visited the grave sites of our relatives together to honor their lives and to celebrate their memories. As for me, every day since your passing has been a memorial day. I will never be the same without you and memories of your loving ways are all I have left. You were the best wife anyone could ask for. No one could ever take your place, nor would I want them to. I got an entire lifetime of love and devotion from you in our time together. I cherish your love every single day. I miss you so much.
Thank you for sharing your life and love with me.
You are still the light of my life.
I will love you until and throughout eternity.

May 11, 2013
Happy Mother's Day
by: Steve Mattson

Happy Mothers Day Lisa

Yet another holiday I can't share with you. I never stop thinking of all the wonderful moments we shared. All the kids love and miss you, but I'm sure you are very aware of that. You were always a great mom and raised the best children. They were very lucky to have you, as was I.
My love for you is as strong as ever. I miss you a lot.
Steve

Feb 14, 2013
Valentines Day
by: Steve Mattson

Lisa,
Happy Valentines Day!
I would give you my heart, but you have already taken it with you.
All the good things you have done in your life have meant a lot to me. I miss your loving ways and all the things you did to make me feel special. I can still feel your love and devotion surrounding me. You will forever be my one and only Valentine. I will love you till the end of time.
Your husband, Steve

Jan 01, 2013
My First New Year Without You
by: Steve Mattson

My First New Year Without You.

Lisa,
Another first has come and gone.
My first New Year without sharing a sweet midnight kiss with you. How sad is that?
I miss you every moment of every day. My heart and mind continue to hold dear our love, and cherish the unbreakable bond that we shared. I thank God and you for sharing your life with me. I know we'll be together again, but for you, it will be like the blink of an eye, for me, it will be almost unbearable.
I love you, I miss you, I will keep you close to my heart forever.
Happy New Year!

Dec 21, 2012
First Christmas in Heaven
by: Steve Mattson

I ran across a great poem by an unknown author.
I would imagine that all those that have been received into the loving arms of Jesus would feel this way. It sends a beautiful message of joy and reassurance of the grace and miracle that is God's promise to all that seek his love and forgiveness. As for me, in my heart, I believe that somehow, Lisa led me to find this to help me get through the holidays.I want to share it with all those that loved her, as well as others that have lost their loved ones.

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below,
With tiny lights like Heaven's stars reflecting in the snow,
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear,
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year,
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here,
I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description to hear the angels sing,
I know how much you miss me, I see your painful heart,
But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart,
So be happy for me dear ones, you know I hold you dear,
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year,
I send you each a special gift from my Heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory of my true undying love,
After all, love is the gift more precious than pure gold,
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told,
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
For I can't count the blessings or the Love He has for you,
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away the tear,
Remember I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

Dec 06, 2012
Christmas Season
by: Steve Mattson

Lisa,
It's almost Christmas, your very favorite time of year.
I remember how your eyes would sparkle as we looked at
all the lights as we drove throughout the neighborhoods.
And how beautifully you would smile when I asked you what you wanted for Christmas. Although you never wanted much, I wish I had given you more.
I miss watching you watch your favorite Christmas classics on television, you always seemed to be watching them for the very first time.
It has been 6 months since you went from being the center of my universe to being a memory of all things good locked in whatever is left of my heart.
People always ask me "How are you doing?" I just smile and say " I'm doing fine."
But there is no way to prepare for the grief associated with losing the love of your life.
We had a beautiful life together. You dreams were my dreams, now, no dreams at all.
Our two hearts beat as one, now, one sad heart just missing you.
I like to imagine you surrounded by billowing clouds gilded by the brilliant light of Gods love.
And I will, once again, be complete when we are together again.
Sweetheart, I close by sending all my love. I miss you very much.
Your devoted husband, Steve.

Nov 03, 2012
Every Day Starts and Ends Without You
by: Steve Mattson

Every Day Starts and Ends Without You.

To my beautiful wife, Lisa;
Every day starts and ends without you.
In between are whispers of unfulfilled dreams and the harsh reality of your passing, but you are in my thoughts constantly.
I have a picture of you in the stairway and give you a kiss almost every time I pass it, and without fail, every night on my way to bed.
Thanksgiving is almost here. It will be another "first" without you.
You always loved the holidays and it does't seem right that you are not here to share them with me. I know that is incredibly selfish on my part, but I can't help it.
I am thankful that you are with God and enjoying His everlasting love in the company of His angels.
The only solice I have is knowing that, one day soon, I will join you in front of Gods golden throne and finally be with you forever.
No one could have loved me more completely and perfectly than you, and for that, I am eternally grateful. God brought us together once, and I look forward to Him doing that once again.
I love you, I miss you, I am lost without you. You remain the "Light of my life" and the "Perfect wife".
Your loving husband

Sep 14, 2012
Simply beautiful
by: Anonymous

Dear Steve,
I am sorry for your loss and what you wrote was truly beautiful-especially the part about God does not make mistakes. Although I know this, I am truly lost and hurting over the lost of my miamore.

Take care!

Sep 01, 2012
Happy Birthday to my perfect wife.
by: Steve Mattson, husband

Happy birthday Lisa!
I miss you so very much.
Today, you are celebrating your first birthday in heaven, in the presence of God and all his angels, and surrounded by those you loved who passed before you. What a blessed reunion all of you are sharing.
You were, indeed, beautiful in an earthly sense, but more importantly, your real beauty came from deep within. Your ability to display unconditional love and share your heart with me made me proud to call you "mine”.
Sometimes, I sit on the patio late at night, under the stars and look up, pick out a glistening star, and think of you. As you were always my shining star, now, selfishly, I imagine you are still shining for only me.
I hope you cannot see the pain and despair I now must call my constant companion.
I am trying not to visit my anguish on the people that surround me with love and understanding, and they are many, but it is a struggle to suppress the raw emotion that continues to tear at my heart.
Your loving husband.

Aug 21, 2012
comments appreciated
by: Steve Mattson

Thank you all for your thoughtful messages. I am still having difficulty accepting the harsh reality. One never thinks about the possibility of losing that which means most in their lives until it is thrust upon them. I know this will sound foolish but I still text messages to her phone, it almost seems like we can communicate like that. At least it makes me feel better for a moment. Thanks, Steve

Aug 10, 2012
Constantly thinking of you.
by: Steve Mattson, husband

Tomorrow will be my first birthday since you were welcomed to your heavenly home.
Although family and friends will be delivering best wishes and I will enjoy their company, my heart will be breaking without you at my side. I celebrate the memory of your life and enduring love more than anything.
I am just not the same without you at my side.
Sadness can overwhelm me just coming home knowing you will not be there to greet me with a smile and a kiss. Even going to the grocery store, or passing a favorite restaurant, or watching one of your favorite television shows can bring tears to my eyes. So many common things that no one would ever think of can bring forth strong feelings of emptiness and a personal realization that the best days of life have come and gone.
The life we shared is in the past--
Time rolls on but memories last!
I believe that love transcends the boundaries between heaven and earth and our love remains in each other.
Goodnight my love.

Aug 01, 2012
Missing you!
by: Steve Mattson, husband

Lisa, We have such great children and so many thoughtful, wonderful family members and friends who are giving me support and loving care that I am amazed at their capacity for compassion. Yet, I continue to feel so alone without you it is nearly unbearable. My heart has a huge void that will never heal. I feel hopelessly lost. Memories are a poor substitute, yet I cling to visions of the love we shared. I miss you and your loving ways, I miss everything about you. My days are empty and meaningless, my nights are consumed with sorrow, knowing I could have done so much more to comfort you. You will remain in my heart and mind until the end of time. Your loving husband, Steve.

Jul 27, 2012
Beautiful!
by: phyllis Pickett

Your memorial was so beautiful, what a lovely wife you lost, I am so very sorry, I lost my young son at Christmas, I still am having a hard time, so I know your pain & loss. Yes you will see her again in Heaven, what a blessing this this, I ask God to send an Angel to hold you strong, what a wonderful husband you are! Your tribute made me cry, so well put so full of love!

Jul 27, 2012
Lisa
by: Beverly

What you wrote was beautiful. I just lost someone I loved so much. I read what you wrote and it made me feel better. God does not make mistakes. Thank you, Beverly

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