my beautifull son Paul 20 may1973-29 april 2012
by Dot Pauls mum
I lost my beautifull son Paul to suicide on 29th april 2012.
he was my first born baby and my rock, I can not look at his photographs or talk about him unless my heart feels as if it is choking me.
I loved my boy so much i tried so very hard to help him through the troubled time he was having with his so called partner, she was and is the most cruellest excuse for a human being that i have ever known,
if i didnt have my lovely family i know i would of gone with him i love and miss him so much and cant imagine living the rest of my life without him.
i cry every night when i go to bed and every morning in the shower,
i wish i could turn back time to the 28th april when my beautifull son was still here with me,and his brother,sisters, nieces,aunties, cousins and all fo his friends. my paul was such a lovely lad he touched people when they met him he was always smiling.he was loved by so many yet one cruel horrible thing could ruin him and all of those that truly loved him couldnt save him.
i miss him with every beat of my heart i still cant believe that i am never ever going to see him, talk to him, hug him,kiss him, or cook for him ever again.
if i could i would add a picture of him but i cant bring myself to look at him yet.