My Beauty Stephanie

by Michelle
(Nl)

It will be 35 weeks this Sunday since I lost my baby girl on February 24, 2013. She was 17 for just 20 days and I lost her. I'll never forget my oldest daughters voice as she told me her sister had died in her fathers home due to a fat fire. Her life flashed before my eyes and I still can't believe she's gone. I cry every day and I'm so angry her death was so senseless. Her dad came home drunk, started a fat fire and left the house for help once he was awaken. The fire department arrived and he told them there was no one else in the home and they didn't sweep the scene, instead put out the fire in the kitchen and left the house for the smoke to clear. My daughter was found in her bedroom while fire fighters looked for hot spots throughout the house and it was too late, she was gone. Her dog died outside her bedroom and his loyality is heartbreaking too. My daughter was so full of life and loved by many, I'm not sure how to get over the anger I feel. Her father started the fire and took away all her chances of rescue. I know I'm suppose to forgive for peace but I think it will be easier to carry her with me in my heart and forget. I don't think I can forgive stupid. I love and miss her so much:(








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Oct 26, 2013
Your Stephanie
by: Kate

I'm so hurt by your loss . That is such a sad,hurtful story. You will have so many emotions as you try to accept this tragedy .
The loss of our child is so tremendous! My heart goes out to you in all you will have to go through. God has been my strength,I could not go on without my son on my own. You can only take so much,the mind will absorb it little by little as you take tiny steps to heal. I'm with you in heart.

Oct 25, 2013
My Beauty Stephanie
by: Doreen UK

Michele I am so sorry for your loss of your daughter Stephanie to a senseless death. I am also sorry for your loss of your daughter's dog. How painful a way to die. Don't even focus on forgiveness now. It is too early to process forgiveness. What is important is to accept your anger as a normal part of your grief and let it run its course. You may find in time that forgiveness may not be the issue. Your loss is. It is normal to be angry with Stephanie's dad for causing the loss of his daughter. When he is sober he will have to live with the guilt for the rest of his life. He behaved in such an irresponsible way. This was your daughter with her whole life ahead of her and such a terrible loss. Take one day at a time as this is the only way to heal over time. The loss of a child is the worst experience of a mother's life. It is understandable to not want to go on living without her. This is a tragedy that could have been avoided. Perhaps the smoke killed Stephanie before the fire did so she wouldn't have suffered. Otherwise she may have gotten out of that burning building. No mother is every prepared to lose a child. I find it unbearable just thinking of this. My worst loss was losing my husband to cancer 17 months ago. My heart aches more now. I feel him still here. I get feelings as if he is going to walk back through the door and tell me God sent him back to me. This is how pain affects the body. An unbearable loss. I wish you better days ahead with the Comfort of God and his Peace upon you and your family.

Oct 25, 2013
My Beauty Stephanie
by: Doreen UK

Michele I am so sorry for your loss of your daughter Stephanie to a senseless death. I am also sorry for your loss of your daughter's dog. How painful a way to die. Don't even focus on forgiveness now. It is too early to process forgiveness. What is important is to accept your anger as a normal part of your grief and let it run its course. You may find in time that forgiveness may not be the issue. Your loss is. It is normal to be angry with Stephanie's dad for causing the loss of his daughter. When he is sober he will have to live with the guilt for the rest of his life. He behaved in such an irresponsible way. This was your daughter with her whole life ahead of her and such a terrible loss. Take one day at a time as this is the only way to heal over time. The loss of a child is the worst experience of a mother's life. It is understandable to not want to go on living without her. This is a tragedy that could have been avoided. Perhaps the smoke killed Stephanie before the fire did so she wouldn't have suffered. Otherwise she may have gotten out of that burning building. No mother is every prepared to lose a child. I find it unbearable just thinking of this. My worst loss was losing my husband to cancer 17 months ago. My heart aches more now. I feel him still here. I get feelings as if he is going to walk back through the door and tell me God sent him back to me. This is how pain affects the body. An unbearable loss. I wish you better days ahead with the Comfort of God and his Peace upon you and your family.

Oct 25, 2013
Loss of daughter
by: Michelle

Dear Michelle....

Though I offer no comforting words I can only tell you I know the awful pain you feel every waking day of your life. We lost our 22 year old daughter Megan January 8th of this year. She was struck by a truck while out on her morning run. She had just graduated college and did not even get to see her degree. Im so sorry. It's a pain we will carry the remaining days of our lives.

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