My Beauty

by Cassie
(Australia)

Beauty

Beauty

I lost my beautiful horse on the 5th January 2011. Her name is Beauty and she was 32 years old and she has been my best friend for 22 years. She lightened my every day and was always by my side, I would get up every morning excited to see her (even after 22 years), Hurry home from school then eventually from work every day to ride her or just take her for a walk somewhere fun and as she got older I just enjoyed spending time with her. We had many adventures together and she was well known and much loved in my hometown. People always ask how she is when I run into them in the street, I am always so proud of my Beauty as she has always been a fighter, so I could stand for hours bragging. Now I try to avoid people as the pain is unbearable. I feel so alone without her.I spend my days not knowing what to do with myself. The day it happened was the worst day of my life and has been ever since. Beauty was on the ground when I got there and she couldn't get up, she did try and try, the vet came and gave her pain killers so she could stand. then after a couple hours the vet discovered a large tumor inside her intestine, I knew by the look on the vets face that it was bad. That night I stayed with her and shared my pizza with her (she enjoyed stealing my food). The next morning she was down again in pain so I called the vet and made the most difficult decision in my life. She was put to sleep. I couldnt stand and watch, and I hope she forgives me for that, I feel as though I let her down but I couldnt bare for her to be in anymore pain. She deserved more then that. Beauty was my only friend all through my teenage years and into my adult years and I miss her so much. She would always wait for me at the paddock gate and neigh when she saw me. She would get cranky at me if I was late or if I rode another horse. She would try and trip me over when I'd give her worming paste, She would always make me laugh. There is so much I could say about beauty but would need alot more space so I will leave it there. She is my Beauty and she is dearly missed by me, my daughter and her paddock friends Brandy and Noddy.

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My Beauty

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Oct 01, 2011
 Painting of Beauty
by: Courtney

Dear Cassie

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious horse. She sounds like she was a very good friend to you. I was deeply moved by your story of her. If you are interested I would like to paint a portrait of Beauty free of charge as I am in the process of setting up my pet portrait business and have not painted a horse yet. If you are interested please email me at courtneyemmalink@gmail.com
Hope you feel better soon
Feb 26, 2011
 My Angel passed soon after Beauty
by: Philip

Dear Cassie,

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't say I know how you feel because I'm not you and everyone experiences loss differently (is was I've been told). I can relate because my loss was 5 days after yours. My sweetheart Angel a Great Dane mix canine on January 10, 2011. It was not a good 2011 for both of us - in fact the worst and most difficult to bear and yet the whole year to endure. But know halfway around the world in South Carolina, USA I felt what you felt. We lost our happiness and I could go on and on but I hope you know I understand and you're not alone. You seem very close to Beauty as I was to Angel. I also shared pizza with her. She loved the crust and I was not such a fan of the crust so it worked out perfectly. It is unbearable for me so I can only imagine the same for you. I hope you hang in there - it's difficult to say the least for me. I wish you the best.

Philip
Feb 17, 2011
 beautiful
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry and Beauty is so beautiful.. I lost my dog, my best friend, in June and 8 months later and the pain is still as sharp as it was then. I too had my life revolve around him - we were happy and so blessed - just like your relationship with Beauty. Its amazing you wrote, "now I try to avoid people as the pain is unbearable. I feel so alone without her. I spend my days not knowing what to do with myself. The day it happened was the worst day of my life and has been ever since".. I feel the exact same way; those are my words too. But I don't have anyone in my life who understands that. I avoid everyone because I don't want to small talk,, i want to cry and tell everyone how much pain I'm in and how the longing to see my guy never goes away. I hope somehow you are able to get thru the day.. it's tough. Advice doesn't help,, I guess just trying to have faith (like the Rainbow Bridge) that we're gonna be with our loves again is really the only thing we can hope for. Take it one moment at a time.. I'm so sorry,,, love and hugs...
Feb 11, 2011
 Beauty was a Beauty
by: Eric

My sincerest condolences. I share your sorrow just reading about Beauty. I would have loved to have met her. I pray time will heal your pain, It is so hard. I fully understand the loss, though your special relationship is yours and hers alone and that is so unique and special on its own. I just lost my precious Missy a few days ago and the pain runs deep. But I find some solace here and sharing with others. Blessings and Peace to you in this time of grief.
Feb 01, 2011
 How very sad!
by: Cindy

I am so sorry for Beauty! We get so attached to our animals. There is a horse across the street from me and I feel so sorry for her. No one every talks to her or even comes to see her. Once in a while I see the owner coming by and dumping food for her. I go over and try talking to her and tried one time to give her an apple. She didn't even know what it was and didn't take it. I know she is old. When I first moved her, there were two over there. One day I say the white one laying on the ground. I knew what had happened and the other horse was just crying and walking around circles of the one laying on the ground. I just cried!

Now, my husband has passed away and I am so heart broken. It has been two months I miss him so very much. On February 7th we would have been married 35 years. I am in so much grief and we have two Yorkies. Harley was his baby and he just carried him around everywhere. They are 9 years old and I know when they go, I am going to go into grief again, but not like losing my husband. He was my whole life and was so good to me. We did everything together and I am so lost.

I have had to put my 16 year old Chihuahua down, so I know how very painful it is. Just time for you to get another horse. I could never replace my husband. He was one of a kind in my life and I grief for him every day...
Jan 31, 2011
 Horse lover too
by: Niki

that was awesome, thank u for sharing that. I lost a horse named Easy Bay. he was wonderful. He was doing what he loved and running a race. Won the race and than in his slow down lap he had a heart attack and died on the track. he stayed alive until i got to him and when i put my hand on his neck and petted him i looked into his eyes and watched his spirit raise up and leave. He looked very peaceful and i knew he was ok. U did the right thing for your Beauty! U gave her peace. Easy Bay is not why i am on this web page but your story just moved me and i remembered him. i have a new horse now his name is Baby Boy he just turned 5 yrs. i rode today for 3 hrs. He is a great friend and i got to see a new born horse baby, born last night. it is a palomino paint. she is so cute. i stood and watched her for a long time. sleeping, running, and nursing. I'm sorry for your loss. i will keep u in my thoughts.
Jan 29, 2011
 My Beauty
by: Anonymous

Hi...I am so sorry for your loss. I too feel your grief and pain. Tattoo and his brother Cotton drove from New York to Florida with me 9 years ago. They were my life, my world revolved around them. It's been 3 months now since I had to put my 16 1/2 year old cat Tattoo to sleep. October 11, 2010 was the worst day of my life. I feel lost and heartbroken and that's the way it's going to be. I am also having a very very hard time with feeling I had let Tattoo down. He was in so much discomfort but on top of that aggravated that he was at the vet and I realized he was afraid of her. I should have gone to another one. I don't use them anymore, I found another close one. There's more reasons but too many to mention. He would always try to get a taste of my food too especially yogurt and I always gave him little tastes especially yogurt. "My yogurt head" I would call him. He would greet me at the door as did his brother who is in Heaven almost 4 years now. My life revolved around them. I currently have 2 cats who lived with Tattoo. Tattoo gave me a little look of annoyance when Sammy would sit next to me. He liked Oreo better. It's amazing that they have feelings like we do. I miss him more than words can say. We will never get over them, we don't and shouldn't have to. We just learn how to deal with it, that's all. One day we will be with all our loved ones, I believe that. That's what I want more than anything. I go to rainbowbridge.com and enter their candlelight vigil on Monday nights at 10:00pm, I try to every Monday night...It lasts for 45 minutes. The whole site is great. Your Beauty will always be alive in your heart. Take care, Laura

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