I lost my beautiful horse on the 5th January 2011. Her name is Beauty and she was 32 years old and she has been my best friend for 22 years. She lightened my every day and was always by my side, I would get up every morning excited to see her (even after 22 years), Hurry home from school then eventually from work every day to ride her or just take her for a walk somewhere fun and as she got older I just enjoyed spending time with her. We had many adventures together and she was well known and much loved in my hometown. People always ask how she is when I run into them in the street, I am always so proud of my Beauty as she has always been a fighter, so I could stand for hours bragging. Now I try to avoid people as the pain is unbearable. I feel so alone without her.I spend my days not knowing what to do with myself. The day it happened was the worst day of my life and has been ever since. Beauty was on the ground when I got there and she couldn't get up, she did try and try, the vet came and gave her pain killers so she could stand. then after a couple hours the vet discovered a large tumor inside her intestine, I knew by the look on the vets face that it was bad. That night I stayed with her and shared my pizza with her (she enjoyed stealing my food). The next morning she was down again in pain so I called the vet and made the most difficult decision in my life. She was put to sleep. I couldnt stand and watch, and I hope she forgives me for that, I feel as though I let her down but I couldnt bare for her to be in anymore pain. She deserved more then that. Beauty was my only friend all through my teenage years and into my adult years and I miss her so much. She would always wait for me at the paddock gate and neigh when she saw me. She would get cranky at me if I was late or if I rode another horse. She would try and trip me over when I'd give her worming paste, She would always make me laugh. There is so much I could say about beauty but would need alot more space so I will leave it there. She is my Beauty and she is dearly missed by me, my daughter and her paddock friends Brandy and Noddy.