My Beloved Daughter Chi Chi
by Tonya Villa
There’s an ache in my heart
Lingering pain that will not go away
Tear stained eyes almost swollen shut
Forming pathways of dark red circles under each eye
I feel old, sick and weak, a part of me that will never be the same
The drip of a bleeding heart………
My sweet, precious, beloved kitty, Chi Chi has passed away
Sudden illness despite medication did not go away, she was hospitalized
Indications of improvement, signaled a return home in 2 days
Instead her symptoms worsened……..
She survived surgery, fought hard to stay…in the end her heart gave out
Oh! Let me tell you of my Chi Chi
She was more human, than cat.
She was my daughter…the second child I could never have…
My son was a lonely child before we adopted her from a Homeless Animal Shelter in NJ
He was only 5 ½ years old, when he chose Chi Chi as the one he wanted to be his little sister.
CJ named Chi Chi after the mother of one of his favorite Anime cartoon characters
They spent the next 12 ½ years growing together, I caring for and deeply loving them both
Chi Chi and CJ would run through the house playing a fast paced game of tag
When Cj played with his toys, Chi Chi would join him and slap a few around the floor
They cuddled and took naps together, much joy and laughter emanating from CJ’s room……
As CJ grew, they would play a rough game of kitty boxing…Chi Chi always winning with the use of both front, back paws and teeth.
When he did homework, she would sit perched somewhere over his shoulder to observe his progress
If CJ was out with friends, Chi Chi stood as a silent sentinel perched at the window or the door awaiting his return
My daughter Chi Chi was a part of my daily routine
Each morning she woke me up with a soft purr
She would rub against my leg in appreciation of each meal I fed her
Bounding out of the kitchen she would jump on my bed for daily petting
I still see her lounging on her favorite chairs, sitting or observing my every move from her favorite spots all over the house
She always followed me around, we talked to each other throughout the day
I loved holding her in my arms, her fur so soft and sweet smelling
She had mesmerizing green eyes that would turn almost black when she was excited
She was my Baby!!!!!
We watched TV together; she slept on my bed every night
Partially paralyzed in a hospital bed at home for 8 months after my spinal surgery, I was in despair
Alone while CJ was in school, Chi Chi never left my side
I would awake in pain; she would rise from the end of the hospital bed and comfort me
Chi Chi encouraged me to try to move my fingers again so I could pet her and to rise out of the bed to feed her
She was my comfort, constant companion and inspiration during one of the darkest hours of my life
How does one recover from such a loss?,
CJ and I are grieving, trying to stay strong…but it is difficult…she was so much a part of our lives!
How do we fill the gaping holes in our hearts, a member of our family is missing!
Rest in Peace Chi Chi………CJ and I MISS and will ALWAYS LOVE YOU…FOREVER!!!