My beloved Hudeany

by Matilda Martin
(Liverpool, NS, Canada)

My big boy will be missed.

My big boy will be missed.

My big boy will be missed.
He was vary special.

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February 22, 2012

There is a quote that I would love to share with you."Grief is so painfully real, regardless of its origin. The love of, and attachment to, an animal friend can equal that of human relationships. Likewise, the loss of an animal can be just as devastating."
~Rev. Joel L. Morgan

I agree totally with that quote. It is so true about grief being so painfully real. I feel like it will never end with each and every new day, without my parrot. My heart feels for the lost of Hudeany. We once share a vary special bond together that had left a big empty hole within side of me, after his passing. I don't think I could ever be the same after losing such a special friend. I keep waking up wishing that it was just a dream but it's not. My beloved big boy is really gone. It hurts so much and so hard at times that I cry my eyes out at times. Right now to move on, not seeing nor hearing him after his death is so vary hard to except. Early mornings just as the sun rises and evenings before the sun disappeared behind the tall trees is when you usually heard him the most. There is always those memorable things that would trigger a reminder of our days together. It's like every where’s that I look now, around my bedroom is something that reminds me of him. That it would make me weep like crazy with tears over flowing down my face like a river, non stop. Oh Hudeany, if only you knew just how much you meant to me.

I left his cage just the way it was before his passing. His food and water is still there and untouched. His clean bedding hasn't been removed. Nor have I taken his favourite blanket from off his cage. There in front of my window is where I left his cage. Hudeany use to just love looking out the window and seeing the wild birds outside, feeding from off the ground. Whenever he seen a stray cat you always knew it because he would let out a big, long screech until the cat left or ran off to avoid the dreadful noise from my parrot. Hudeany had always hated cats. I will miss him dearly. He was truly one of a kind, nothing or no animal could ever replace him.

After making such a hard decision to have him put down due to the arthritis in his both legs by our local veterinary’s, he slipped into a deep sleep February the 14th. He had left foots print behind in my heart and all the wonderful times that we both shared together. Today I'm still grieving as if he had died yesterday. Oh Hudeany, I will always remember and love you as if you have never left.

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Jun 01, 2015
by: Saro

It is very sad that your much beloved parakeet died. I know how it feels when you lose your loved pets. I hope that by this time you have recovered from the grief of losing your parrot. May god bless you

Mar 17, 2012
I miss my bird so much
by: Matilda martin

Days are longer now and getting warmer temperatures from now on. Plus spring will soon be here and getting more beautiful then ever the further long we head into it. It's just I wasn't expecting him leaving me so soon. I bought out all the parrot food I can get , among other birds supplies before the pet shop went out of business and he's gone , just that fast. I was so hoping he be around for the spring and summer but to lose Hudeany February 14TH. Just when I take a step forward with my grieving , then I go back 2 steps. Now more then anything. Maybe it's just where I'm home a lot during the march break that it's a steady reminder of what I lost. All I know is it feels like a part of me went with him when he died. I wish I didn't hurt like crazy. That's just how much I loved him.

Mar 15, 2012
by: Matilda martin

It's been a month and one day now since Hudeany passed away. He wasn't just a pet to me, he was so much more then that. Like a child that I never had before. We once shared a vary close band together from way back when my ex- boyfriend, Chris got him for himself but yet I looked after the bird, not the ex. After couple years of my break up I finally got a call that I been waiting for from my ex's nephew about taking Hudeany off Chris's hands. Chris lives just two houses from where I live. Anyways that was the happiest day of my life but what I wasn't expected when going over to the ex's house to get the bird was how vary sick and badly the bird was neglected. It was so bad that after finally getting Hudeany I cried my little heart out, once home to have seen him living in such poor conditions. In spite of it all I done everything possible to make my parrot well again. It's been 3 years that I had Hudeany but the first year of having him was a touch and go. Mom kept a close eye on him while I went to school during the days and if he looked like he he was going to die I told her to give me a call, right away. Which mom did. I even called home enough times to check on the bird and I rarely went anyways, fear something going wrong during the first year. The main thing was I got the chance to have him for the last three years on Earth. After my lost I realize Hudeany showed me what the meaning of true love was. Which I never felt before for any other animal or my ex.

Feb 27, 2012
by: Kristy

What a beautiful bird!I know exactly how you feel Mathilda. There is a special bond that exists among those of us who love our animals. I truly understand how heart-wrenching your decision as I too made the decision to put down my Porkchop.I am trying to take comfort in the wonderful memories that I have of my angel. I too, buried my Porkchop in one of his favorite spots in our back yard.May they both rest in peace and be restoed to their former healthy selves as they cross the rainbow bridge.

Feb 23, 2012
What a lovely tribute
by: Denise

For such a lovely boy. I wondered about his name, but now I see your explanation. It is perfect. God bless and comfort you in your season of grief. Our relationships with our angels is sometimes much harder to bear losing than others.

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