My Beloved husband of 43 yrs and I am so sad
I have posted on this site about my husband dying in Nov. 2012 of Sudden cardiac arrest and my world and my grown children's world came crashing down. He was the best husband, Dad and grandfather ever. He was our rock and protector. It has been a little passed 6 mons and I feel stronger in some ways and worse in other ways. The reality of my loss has set in and I see my life as it must be now---without my best friend and the only love of my life. I now am faced with doing all the things that he did around the house; all the decision making and doing jobs that I never had a clue about before. I feel his love and encouragement to keep trying and go on for the kids and grandkids. I go about doing a difficult task that my husband made look so easy. It is very hard and then I sit down and cry and cry. Then I get up (God pulls me up) and try again. Some things take me hours to do but when I accomplish it I feel my husband being so proud of me. My heart can never be broken again because it is cracked into a million pieces and I wish I could go to heaven with my love. But, God has another plan for me--I guess He wants me to stay on earth for a while yet. I think about my husband all the time; I dream about him most every night and I long for the day when Jesus calls my name and I will see my husband again. On this site we all have the same feelings and emotions and I am so sorry for all your pain.