My Beloved Sister; We have the same age for 5 days...

by Mj
(Cleveland, OH)

To my beloved sister. My sister and I have the same AGE for 5 days. She was born, 5 days before I turn One, Her birthday was Nov 30 and I was born Dec 5.She was taken from this world too early. Since she died my birthday was never the same. Every year around this time I have had troubles, Anger, Regrets and even difficult to breath. Its seems so hard to move forward, but I managed to get by. Sometimes I Wish December is not part of the month! My mind is all about what If.... What If.. The fact that she died December 21. My Christmas was also unbearable.... but, I learned how to make it through this month every year for 11 years......

CJ Pahilmagan

Love Sissy

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Dec 03, 2012
My Beloved Sister; We have the same age for 5 days.
by: Doreen U.K.

MJ I am sorry for your loss of your sister. You are still in a state of anxiety and should try and see a grief counsellor who is skilled to help you over this anxiety that will only get worse if you do nothing about this.
You have a wasted life as a result. You are punishing yourself for her dying by not living as you should. You are stuck in grief and can't move forward as you should in a healthy way and remember your sister by honouring her memory. Not suffering anxiety. I know how you feel, and how difficult it is to help yourself or move forward from where you are. Change is not easy and often we can't change our feelings because we don't know how to.
Because I have done counselling for years I know the benefits and how one's pain can be put in the right place. You will look at life with new eyes and you won't love your sister any less. You will love her more in a healthy way. I know what it feels like to live in a HELL that you can't get out of or change. being in counselling has allowed me to develop skills that makes life more bearable each day. We owe it to ourselves to live well. I hope that you will be able to move forward in the right way with skilled help and not forced by you to change because it is what is expected of you.

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