My best friend and true love passed away last month
My best friend forever - my soul mate - my true love died 8 weeks ago. These have been the most excruciating weeks of my life – and it only seems to get worse. We were together for 15 wonderful years. Mickey was always so loving and fun to be with. He had such a positive outlook on life. He knew me better than anyone ever has. Mickey was ill and I took care of him. I wish I could have spent more time ‘with’ him the last months of his life and not just ‘taking care of’ him. Not sure if that makes sense. There was so much to do and I was exhausted physically and emotionally. I didn’t have much help no matter how much I asked so I tried to take care of him the best I could and still keep working. He went into the hospital and a routine procedure went terribly wrong. The night before, we talked and prayed together, said we love each other. I didn’t know that it would be the last time we would ever be together. I am comforted knowing how much Mickey loved me. And that he knew how much I love him. Although family and friends hurt and miss Mickey too - they are able to continue on with their lives. My world is completely shattered. Mickey and I were together every single day all these years and now suddenly he is not here with me. I miss him so much it hurts me to my core. It’s a struggle facing each day that shows up. I am grateful for these 15 years together – but they now seem to have gone by in a blink of an eye.