My best friend, Husband and Daddy
3 weeks ago I lost the best friend I ever had in a tragic farm related accident. I am so lost right now and trying to stay strong for our 2 little girls, (4 and 1). We were married for 7 years and had a wonderful life. He had worked so hard for everything he ever had. Along with our 2 girls, we have a cattle herd that I now have to manage. Everyone keeps asking me what I am going to do, with the house, work, cows. I don't know what to tell anyone. I want the answers to be sitting in front of me. I know if I listen to god and my heart things will turn out ok, but it is so hard.
I try to keep myself busy so I don't have to think about the loss we all suffered, but I'm sure that is not healthy. I think someday I am going to lose it. I want to keep my chin up and stay strong for the girls but don't know how long I can keep it up. Everyone has been so helpful and generous. I know there are many people out there praying for us, but nothing is easing the pain.