My best friend is gone...

by Ella Moody
(Mansfield, TX, USA)

My mother passed on June 8, 2012 at the age of 88 after being in ICU for three long excuiating weeks, I never left her side. I was her primary caretaker for 17 years; 17 GOOD years. I watchd bounce back from a massive stoke in 1995 to a fully functional person. Her health declined as time marched on; one leg amputation in 2009 and the other leg in 2010. She was totally bedbound and needed full time care, again I was always there. I was their when she took her last breath alone with a host of family and friends. That will always have a long lasting effect in my mind, something I will never forgot. I will cherish that monment. Seeing someone die is a mystical mind boggling experience, it was utterly peaceful. I remember vividely my mother's radiant skin, the frown lines in her forehead just disappeared, the peaceful smile on hre face. The temprature in her bedroom changed, it was cool, calm and seriene. I was not sad, I felt relieved that she had transition from this earthly life to another world that man knows very little about.
I love my mother dearly, I was a good daughter....
It has been a month now and I am faced with the pain of her non presence in my life. I'm strong willed and determined that I will get through this but for now, I'm hurting inside and there is no treatment for the pain I feel. If you believe in the power of pray, please pray for me.
My BEST FRIEND did not have coffee/breakfast with me this morning.....
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Jul 07, 2012
My best friend is gone
by: Doreen England

Dear Ella Moody I am sorry for your loss. You are in the pain of grief. It is a very hard place to be for all of us. There are times we feel we cannot cope. It has been 8 weeks for me today I lost my husband of 44yrs. marriage. I was his caregiver for 3yrs39days. Steve wanted to live and he died. The pain is like nothing we will ever go though in life. Ella of course we will pray for you to have strength to cope with your loss and for you to recover strength to go on in life. I don't feel like going on in life. EVery day is same. I am not able to do anything much. I am taking time off to grieve so that I can do what I have to in the days ahead. My heart is broken. I can't recover yesterday and today. I have been feeling down. I have my angry moments. I am stuck in the house. I am ill with a sore throat and fever. I am lying down and not doing anything until I feel better. Grief leaves one feeling run down in health. Grief is different for each of us but the pain is the same. sometimes the pain is more severe depending on the type of death. Ella don't do more than you have to. Seek out a bereavement counsellor if you need one. Don't suffer alone. I wish you better days ahead.

Jul 07, 2012
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. My mom passed away in November on my birthday. My mom and I were like two peas in a pod. I miss her greatly. I think about her every day. May your find some comfort.

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