My best friend Jake gone forever
On the evening of July 22nd I was sitting at home and received a text from a dear friend of mine in the Bahamas. It said to call regarding an urgent matter. I knew that it could only be bad news as my 25yr old son Jacob was vacationing on Long Island Bahamas. I called and she told me that my son was in an automobile accident and had died at the scene. I was totally devastated and hysterical. I cried, screamed for a period of time then in a zombie like state I started to make phone calls, first to his mother, then his older brother then others. As others have stated a huge part of me died with my son that night, the sun doesn't shine as bright, food is now just a necessity and longer a pleasure and I find myself staring into space and walking around in circles more often than not. Thanks to a wonderful supportive group of friends and co-workers I have begun to deal with the pain. Two of my co-workers lost a child in their 20's within the last twelve months and talking to them (someone that truly understands) has been very beneficial. I know that I will never totally recover from the loss of my son, my best friend, my Yahtzee playing partner but I also know that I must deal with his loss in order to continue. Jake's life was never easy but he succeeded and was at the best place from a personal stand point as well as in his family relationships that he had ever been. From an early age he was always very empathetic, compassionate and loving. I cry every day, I stare at his recent FB pictures and still can't believe that he is gone. Thinking of the future no longer holds promise but I hope and pray that someday it once again will. One small comfort is that I believe that this is how Jakes life was meant to unfold. Jake had accomplished everything that he was destined to accomplish and now it was time for him to move on. He taught all the people that he touched some kind of lesson and we are all better for knowing him. I will miss my son with all of my heart until the day that I die and will never stop thinking of him. I no longer fear dying as I know that my son will be there to help me crossover when my time comes...