My best friend taken too soon...
My mom passed away on the 29th of May, after a week in ICU. Pulmonary Embolism. That's how the doctors explained it to me, as if I wanted to hear that. She was find, everything was fine. Then all of a sudden she stopped breathing and my whole world changed. Her heart stopped in the emergency room just as the paramedics pushed her in and they tried to revive her for almost an hour. Her heart started beating again and she was pushed into ICU where I spent a whole week with her. Mourning already as I knew my life would change forever. Mommy was my everything. My best friend. The one who always made me feel better. Some days I still can't understand why this had to happen to me now. I still have to get married. Our wedding was supposed to be in October, but I just can't do it. It won't be the same without her. But I have the most wonderful fiance any girl could ask for. He understands and tries everything in his power to make me feel better. I just wish she could come back to me for one day. I won't cry, I won't say anything. I will just ask her to hold me and tell me that everything will be ok. I miss her arms around me, I miss her laugh, I miss her voice... The good that came out of this awful situation, is that I haven't been this close to God in my whole life. I feel His comfort, even though it still is really difficult. I'm yearning for the day that I see her again xXx