My best friend

by Georgina

My grandma died 1 month and three days ago (August 24th 2012, morning)and I can't bring myself to stop crying or counting the days she has been away. She was my best friend and I loved spending time with her, ever since my grandpa died I have had nightmares about when she will be next and have woken up just crying. Though I don't think anything could have prepared me for the loss I am feeling now. It's like someone took away my soul and left only despair and the question of what is the point of me carrying on. I'm only 15 and know that eventually I will get on with my life but the loss is so huge that I can barely get up out of bed in the morning and then have to act normal until I'm on my own again, when I look at pictures and cry.

I used to visit a lot sit with her listen to everything she wanted to talk about, or just watch 'midsummer murders' 'poirot' I used to especially looked forward to watching 'murder she wrote' where my grandma would say you know I'm younger than her, and just look at me with this wise smile. Sunday dinners my grandma would visit and bring some kind of chocolate or sweets individually wrapped in sandwich bags, for some reason she divided them up herself.

Illness took her over several months, strokes, heart attacks and fits which resulted in her loosing memories.

I cant even finish this because of my tears, I just want her back soo much, every minute I'm alone I cant seem to divert my attention away from it :`-(

She will be forever in my memory as will all her stories about anything. I love you GRANDMA x

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Aug 20, 2014
My condolences
by: rach

I'm very sorry for your loss. I also recently lost my grandma in early august 2014. She and I were the closest and I still miss her terribly each day. We have to be strong though, because that's what our grandmas would want us to be. I believe your grandma must have lived a fruitful and meaningful life. Now it's your turn to live for both you and your grandma. Again, my condolences to you and your family.

Oct 22, 2012
Loss of a grandmother
by: Tiffany


I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my grandmother 3 years ago. Tomorrow would be her birthday and I keep bringing myself to tears. Your grandmother sounded like such a loving person. The best way to keep her spirit alive is to keep looking at her pictures, talk about her with friends and family, and just keep in your heart. She will always be with you.

Oct 02, 2012
can relate to how you are feeling
by: Jenna

Hi Georgina,

I came across your story as I was doing some research on bereavement. I am sorry for your loss and want you to know I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. My grandmother died January 21, 2012. I am 28 years old and it is the most painful loss I have ever endured. I miss her terriby everyday. I believed in my heart she would live forever and cannot believe she is really gone. I have been participating in bereavement services that are offered from the hospice program she was in. I think you said you are 15? Talk to your parents about signing up for bereavement support. It is free and has helped me tremendously. I feel your pain and it is awful.

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