My Billy, I miss you
by Lisa Rich
(Mass)
On Jan 3 2009 my 46 year old husband called me on his way home from work, saying he had a wonderful day and was so inspired by the people he worked with. Someone beep their horn, and his whole body started feeling funny. He walked in the door, and I noticed his mouth dropped on the left side. I thought he took a stroke; he wouldn't go to the doctors that night, he refused.
The next day I made him go, When he got to the doctors they did a CT scan and they rushed him to the hospital. They showed me x-rays and kept saying, it could be from the flu shot, or brain cancer, I was so mad at them, he had no symptoms of anything. He was skiing and shoveling the day before, they sent him home and made him take steriods and said they would rescan in 2 weeks, but not to worry, because it was only lesions and he would be fine.
He started acting very strange, I called the doctor and they said it was streroids doing it. I took him back to the hospital, they did another MRI and said they needed to do biopsy on his brain. Well he never woke up from the biopsy, he died on Jan 30th.
My husband had Gileoblastoma level 4 Brain Cancer, not one symptom. Oh, excuse me, he did get the hiccups on 1 day if you want to call that a syptom.
My World has died, life as I knew it is gone, the pain is so hard, I don't know how long I can hold on. I try so hard for my 4 children, but I feel like I am losing this battle. My heart is so broken, and I feel like it gets worse and worse, I put on a smile and I try to function for my children, but I can't hold up this pain no more.
I miss him, I need him, I want him back; why did God Take my soul mate my best friend, my better half? Please if someone out there can give me any hope that this pain REALLY eases up please let me know.
