My Blue Eyed Angel
I feel like I have been in a nightmare since February 18, 2013. I got a call that my 24 yr old son Tommy was being taken to the hospital. I knew in my heart the second I heard the women s voice I wasn't going to have a son he wasn't ever coming home with us again. I just knew. I wasn't told anything other then they were doing CPR now and they didn't know nothing else. I hung up and sat my husband down and told him what my belief was. It was like I was getting us both prepare what I feared most.
We got to the hospital and found out that he had been left lying OD on someone's living room floor anywhere from 24-36 hours before anyone even did CPR or even called 911. He was removed from life support by the hospital on February 21st at 1:25pm he was gone with in a few seconds everything stopped. I swear it felt like my very own heart was going to stop with his.
I have had so much pain and rage how anyone could let anyone die like that I just don't understand that at all. And it will never make any sense to this mother. That is for sure. What gets me is these two women he was with acted like it was no big deal someone lied in the same spot for that long of time. And was upset when I had them removed from the hospital. I mean really? And not one month later she the girlfriend that let him lie on the floor of her living room for that long, she puts a post one day short of a month that she has meant the love of her life and soul mate!!! I about lost my mind. I don't understand people like this I just can't!!!
And this sure has seem to bring out the worst in the entire family, I mean everyone is acting their very worst which I don't quite get. I'm the mother my husband is the Dad and everyone wants to act a fool and make our life even worst. I don't understand this part at all. Now of all times I don't need people messing with either of us.
Well my other son and us have never gotten along this well, He has been at his best but there is no way of him being here in town with us. He calls and writes as much as possible. I have only seen him once. So it is great he isn't acting like the rest seem to be all losing their minds. Is this normal or what? I feel most sorry for my baby sister she is trying her best to be strong for me and my hubby and everything is falling on her. I'm trying my best to get on with life. But I don't know how to go on without my baby. And yes he was 24 but he was my baby. My strength for the last 10 yrs. I got hurt and he took great care of his old crippled up Mom and I just don't know what my life is without him. Does any of this make sense to you all?
Maybe just getting my feelings out might help, I hoping anyway. Thanks for listening.