My Brother Paul Anthony - Gone too Soon...........
On Friday, March 12, 2010, the family decided to take my brother off life support and we let him go home to heaven.
Two days before is when I received a phone call in the morning from my mother saying she could not wake my brother up and he was not breathing. Mom said she called 911. I remember not believing what I was hearing and started to cry. My mom said when she found him, it sounded like he was snoring, but now she says it did not sound like his normal loud snoring (he had sleep apnea). It sounded like a steady sound kind of like a snore, but was much quieter. He was taken to the hospital in an ambulance and they were able to get a pulse, but they lost his pulse 4 times on the way to the hospital.
My brother was in the hospital for 2 days and the doctors ran tests and could not find out what happened. When they did a brain scan, it showed there was not much brain activity and his brain did not look like a normal brain. The doctors told us he was brain dead and if he did wake up, he would be a vegetable.
The Sunday before, he was taken to the emergency room because he had a high fever, a cough, and the chills. The doctor at the ER said he had pre-pneumonia and they gave him codeine medicine and other antibiotics. I last saw my brother alive on Tuesday March 9. All we know is that he went to sleep and did not wake up. No autopsy was done.
We knew death was real, but there is no way to actually know what it is until you go through this and experience it. What I cannot get past is knowing that I will never see him again, never hug him or talk to him. I know I will see him in heaven one day, but he will never be playing softball with us or be at the family gatherings anymore. Just watching my parents going through this pain - the loss of a child is not fair to any parent.
If I had one wish, it would be to wish this was just a bad nightmare and I want someone to wake us all up. But going to the cemetery to visit him makes it real and makes us all so sad. There are so many emotions we are feeling. We miss you Anthony!!!!!! Good bye for now, but not forever.