by Phyllis Pickett
(Garden City Ks.)
My youngest son passed away from alcohol & drug abuse, he was warned a yr before we lost him he had to stop or die, after two surgeries to stop him bleeding to death he still continued to do both, he started bleeding for the 3rd time & passed in surgery just as the Drs had warned him, he was good at heart but loved to party, was a good little boy & no problem with the drugs til he married & her family did both, so of course he started. She got PG didn't want the baby so my husband & I adopted her she has been a joy, her her Mom ran off & her Dad were close but she felt his neglect for her & it hurt her. She told me he cared more about his bad habits & friends than he did her, some times it did seem that way, but we were all close, he was always at the house, but always drinking or drunk, I loved him so, this is almost unbearable for me....why, He was just turned 39. All tell me to move on but it hurts so bad, I don't enjoy doing anything, I think of Chaddy being dead not getting to enjoy anything with me ever again, He told me 3 days before he passed he talked to jesus everyday & he knew his Grandma had a place saved for him in heaven, I rocked him in my arms & kissed him til the took him away, I just can't take this loss of my son I take meds they help some but how do I get better I would appreciate help from anyone, God Bless you all....I love you Chad!!!