MY DAD, MY WEAKNESS, MY STRENGHT......

by HUSMITA
(SOUTH AFRICA)

I lost my Daddy on Sunday,29th of July 2012 and it STILL hurts so much! I go to sleep with this painful lump in my throat,and keep thinkink that when I wake up it will be gone, but it's still there every morning!

My Daddy got very ill, and because of reasons that was beyond me I did not get to see him before he died! that morning (29th),I closed my eyes and said to him "Daddy all I want to do is to hold you and tell you that I love you SO much, and that I don't want you to be scared, because the place you going to, is going to be SO beautiful!" I saw him smile SO beautifully at me, and twenty minutes later my mum called crying hysterically, that my Daddy is gone!

I was so prepared for that news, but i did'nt know that it will hurt so much! I also understand the journey of life and the passing of souls from one body to the next, but I miss the relationship that I had with him. I was his favorite, and he was my hero.....he upset me from time to time, but he also made me so happy and so special and....I wish i was not robbed of my last moments with him! I am not angry with those who had stopped me from seeing and being with him, infact I feel sorry for them. I just wish we could all learn and grow and realise that we do not have the luxury of time, and time waits for NO ONE.

Tomorrow, 8 October is my Daddy's birthday and I just wish I have the courage and strenght to celebrate his life, rather then mourn his death.

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Oct 07, 2012
i will Celebrate with you
by: LJ

After almost 9 years when i read your words I understand we are not alone in this feeling of emptiness, loss and rejection.

However, now you need to lead out in the darkness of the night as he is always with you. 1 life, 1 journey, 1 light. In the lonely and darkess times please reach out as when you were born he knew he will always be with you. ALWAYS, with LOVE and PRIDE.


I love you both eternally x

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