by Rhanda Mejia
Marco Mejia, Pops we just lost you feels like yesterday but it has been only weeks maybe two months. These days feel like nightmares to only wake to the horrible shock over and over that your not with us. I'm so angry at the doctors for not telling us the truth.. just how much time you really had. I wouldn't have gone back to work I would have never left your side how could I have been so blind....but you knew.. I think you knew, were you scared to go? Were you ok to leave? My heart says you knew you were leaving us but gave us hope when you said you would beat this ugly cancer, "mind over matter" is what you would say. My heart hurts wondering if your ok.. knowing you wanted so much to live did you ever have a chance to? When you did go it was so quick, it helps me believe you made a choice ... and left so that we would not suffer. You always put others first,,, I just want you to know Dad that yes I will always want to hug you and kiss you for the rest of my life... it was your little saying to us when we got to the age of not wanting our parents around. Now I would give anything to hug and kiss you... Dad I'm sorry I'm so weak these days.. its so hard to find peace ... please help me. I love you so much I hope.. your ok, We miss you so much. I did my best ,,, I hope you know...