My dearest son Clive

by Charmaine
(South Africa)

My son passed away on the 12/12/2012 from a heart transplant. He was born with a heart condition and had many operations throughout his years but was a fighter since he was born and overcome ever operation he had. He was placed on the heart transplant list for 3 years and got the call on the 5th December 2012, not knowing it was the call of his death. We were so positive and had so much faith as we prayed so hard for this heart. All we wanted was for him to have a normal life without having blue lips and finger tips. Clive never let his condition get him down and was such a positive and loving boy. Although he was 26 years of age his maturity was of a 16-18 boy. Early hours of the morning of the 12th I had bad feelings and we went to the hospital immediately and Clive's condition go worse. We sat outside his enclose glass cubicle and all I felt was a very cold breeze come pass me, my whole body was frozen till my toes and within minutes we saw the straight line of the heart monitor and saw him go in front of our eyes without us able to do anything to help him. It felt as all was ripped out of me as part of my heart was gone. An autopsy had to be performed on him as he did not awake from surgery, which could only be done the day before Christmas. When ever someone mentions Christmas I see my son lifeless on a steel cold bed. We could only bury my son in January on his birthday, 3 weeks after his death due to all the public holidays. When we had to identify my son before burying him, his body was already decomposing and all I smell was death on me for days. It is almost a year and both myself and husband have so much anger and bitterness, how can we ever start living. Clive did not deserve this. I feel so angry with God as he gave us the heart but took my son.

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