My dog Cookie. I have a broken heart.
by Tracey
Cookie begging for food!!
She was and still is a good dog, so sweet, adorable, made us laugh every day and never hurt anyone. The last yr we had her, her health started to go down hill. She had a bad hip, her hearing started to go, her eye sight was starting to fade (she only had one eye because 3 yrs earlier it had to be removed because of a tumor), she couldnt hold her potties like she used to. Then she became senile. We had no idea. She would walk up to a wall and just stand there and stare, or would get stuck between two chairs and couldn't figure how to get out. When the vet told us she was senile, it all made sense. It got to the point where she had so much trouble walking that her leg would give out on her and she would sit down and couldn't get up. Me and my huband was always helping her stand and keep her balance. Then came the time when she couldn't balance to eat, so she would lean against the wall. She stopped drinking water, so we had to add extra to her food. One day it was clear to me that she was miserable and we had no choice but to make that awful decision to have her put to sleep. I gave her a sedative, which she then fell into a deep sleep. When the vet came to our house she didn't wake up. Didn't even know he was there. So when he gave her the injection she passed very peacefully in her sleep. Me and my husband cried when they took her away. We now have her ashes in a beautiful urn and a very happy pic of her on it. But I'm still suffering from grief. Some days aren't too bad, then other days it's terrible. I miss her, and I also have this terrible guilt that is eating at me. Today March 13, 2009, I was reading a mothers day card that my husband bought, and he wrote it like it was from the dog. He signed it like this: (Thank you for always looking out for me, we love you!! Cookie, woof woof) When I read it today, it broke my heart and I started to cry. This pain is terrible!!!
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