My everything passed away ...

by Marymo1964
(Forsyth GA USA)

My name is Mary and my soulmate was Joseph ( Joey ) ... to tell you my story I have to go back to my son , my only child , my world , I tried to find a good man to help raise him but God had other plans , I raised him alone and from the time he was 10 I stopped dating , told all my friends and my son God would bring me someone when my son turned 18 , I couldnt work for those years because of a back Injury so I didnt go anywhere to meet anyone new .... all my friends would say to me , well your never going to meet anyone sitting at home , I would tell then when my son turns 18 God will send him to me , some way some how , I always had the faith , (my sons birthday is 2-14-1984) so on 1-2-2002 , Joey walked in my new home with a new friend I had just met a month before ... we started dating a month later seriously , he had already had a heart attack ,and a stent put in, and a long family history of bad hearts ... we never really fought and we were together 24/7 , didnt have a lot of money, with both of us not really being able to work but we were happy together and as the years passed his heart started to get very week , we fought a hard fight he has a pacemaker / defibrillator , had a IV of meds straight to his heart , ( he was bedridden at this point )...then he had a L.V.A.D.(left ventricular assist device heartmate ii ) put in ... My Joey passed away on 2-14-12 , God gave him to me for ten wonderful years ... I took care of Joey 24/7 for the last 4 yrs , he was my everything and now ... I am so lost and feel so alone . Im not sure how to move on from this loss now.

Comments for My everything passed away ...

Click here to add your own comments

Jun 03, 2012
Know that Feeling
by: Judith in California

Mary, what a beautiful looking couple you were. Just like me and my husband. Oh to be able to go back to those days!

I am so sorry for your loss and what you are experiencing now. Please read all the letters from those of us who have been on this recovery road for a while in LOST SPOUSES. You will find a wealth of answers to your question "how do you go on/".

Please look to God for strentgh and you will one day be on the other side of grief to acceptance and peace.

Click here to add your own comments

Return to Lost Spouse/ True Love.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief

Free Griefwork

Free Stress

SBI Video Tour!