My ex husband Richard
by Laura Mitchell
(Paisley,Scotland,UK)
The date is 23/2/11,and 11 days ago,i received a phone call at half 5 on a sunday morning that has shattered my world. My lovely lovely ex husband had been found dead,very suddenly at home. We had been friends and partners for the first 8 years,gotten divorced but remained as life partners..we were soulmates. He'd be the 1st person i'd run to and i was the 1st person he would run to. He was only 40 years old,it was very sudden,but we know what killed him,rather not share that here tho.
The bottom has fallen out of my world,i am literally...shattered. I had to go and see him,it was my first time i'd seen a dead body,i spent 5 hours on a train from Scotland to England,knowing the sad journey i was making. I spent it in tears, other train passengers were coming up to me,checking i was ok. To see the man i loved, once sooooo vibrant,warm and strong,lying cold on a hospital bed,not even looking like himself,i cannot describe. It will stay with me till the end of my own days. My daughter has started sleeping in with her Mum again,at 13. She's acting out,getting angry,and then disrespectful in equal measure. The love him and i shared was unequaled,it cannot be measured. We were everything to each other,each other's soulmates, nobody even came close. You think you have all the time in the world to sort things out,then this happens and you know life will never be the same again. So i urge you people,if there is anyone you havent spoken to in a while,a friend,a brother or sister,anyone...get back in touch and hug your loved one's close tonight,as if you cannot let go. I only wish i could see my Braveheart richard one more time to tell him how much i loved him and how thankful i was to have him in my life . May the roads rise up to meet you,may the wind be always at your back,may the sun shine warm upon your face,the rains falls softly upon your fields and till we meet again,may God hold you in the palm of His hand. God bless you Richard Collin Armstrong,11/6/70-12/2/11..Love always,Laura and Sarah...xxx