My first anniversary by myself
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Today was our 24th wedding anniversary. We have actually been together for 26 years but married 24 of them. Today was so hard. I couldn't manage to do anything without breaking down. Bryan started a tradition 23 years ago, on our anniversary he always took me to eat at our favorite Italian restaurant. Today I took my two girls instead, I think he would like that. I took my girls home and then went to my mil's. I only meant to stay a short while as I wanted to go see Bryan as my final stop.
My mil and I were talking about how close Bryan and I were, she said that I was the best thing that ever happened to Bryan. We both agreed that we were great for each other, that we are soul mates. Before I knew it I looked outside and it was dark. I just broke down in tears. I had to go see him, today not tomorrow. Today is our anniversary not tomorrow. My mil tried to talk me out of it, but I had to go.
I went to the graveyard but didn't get out of the truck as it was really dark by then. I sat and talked to him about 10 minutes or so and then told him goodnight that I had to go, but I would be back to see him. About that time one of my daughters called to check on me as it was getting late. I made it home just fine, but the night's not over yet.
Throughout our marriage, Bryan and I never told each other goodbye it was always see ya later or goodnight. That way we would always have to stay around to see each other later. But now he is gone for too long until we meet again. I feel like I just want to go be with him asap. I know that he wants me to stay here for now until it is my time. But is so hard; somebody please help me. It's too painful. I love him so much!! I miss him so much!!