My first born died on December 11, 2012 of Aids, I am Lost
by Toni Epperson
(Toledo, Ohio, USA)
We didn't even know that David was even sick, he went to the ER in September that's when we found out he was HIV positive. He had been for years, but for some reason he never told us, nor got treatment. He was in the hospital for one month, and came home with us for almost 3 weeks, then grand mal seizures. Second hospitalizion Noveember 11th - died December 11th. My heart hurst like it has never hurt before!I love my boy so much, and I am angry with his choice of not getting treatment, nor sharing this with at least me his mom. I go into his room daily and sit on the bed wanting him to be there so that I can take care of him. I miss my boy. In the end Advanced staged Aids was diagnosed, then I found out he was originally diagnosed with AIDS back in September! No one ever told us; I continually asked the Doctors is this AIDS or HIV and I was told HIV each time. It was a nurse who called me and told me about the AIDS 3 days before he died. I have so many questions, that I know I will never get answers to. I am hollow inside, I miss my boy.When I think back over the years, I remember the phone calls in the middle of the night: my David crying just crying, and me attempting to console him. I remember over the years the deep depression episodes, and the suicide attempts. I remember him getting jumped just walking down the street because of his lifestyle. I remember so much, I miss my boy. My David was 30yrs old when he departed this life, and I will miss him for the rest of mines.